"You must do the thing you think you can not do." - Eleanor Roosevelt
I have two earlier entries back <---- thataway. Just in case you're curious.
Start time: 8:39 p.m. Keep in mind that I am at work so this may take me a little longer than it'd take you. Okay, ready?
Have u ever been in love with one of your friends? No but I've crushed on a couple over the years.
What the worst relationship youve ever been in? Chris Le Blanc. 'Nough said.
When was the last time you cried? Last week?
What song are you listening to RIGHT now? I'm not
Would you date your ex again? Depends on which one. I'd probably date Brian again. MAYBE Keith. Big maybe.
How long do you think you will live? Hopefully long enough to have a good milestone anniversary with my husband.
What was the last lie you said? *shrugs*
If you could be anywhere in the world right now where would it be? Home. Actually, I'd really like to either go to Kansas to see my folks or to Phoenix to see the rest of my friends & family.
Did you get over your ex or do u still love him/her? Took me a while but I finally got over him.
Are you single? Nope! Happily married.
Have you ever been in a car accident? A few. None serious, thankfully.
Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it? Yes cuz I'm not quite sure that I actually love my MIL.
If you were ever sent to prison what crime would you have committed? Theft, probably.
Do you believe in true love? Yes
Are you a good person? I try to be. I think I am.
Have you ever been in love? Yes.
Do you dislike or hate anyone? If so, why? There's only one person I truly dislike. He abused my two of my cousins.
Is there anything that you have done that you regret? Of course.
Do you believe in God? Yes
Are you faithful in relationships? Yes
Does everything happen for a reason? Probably
Have you ever cheated on someone? Yes, forever & a decade ago.
Do you believe in karma? She can be a bitch when she wants to be.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet? Yep, the aforementioned person that I truly dislike.
Do you have any enemies? I don't think so.
How serious are your feelings for the person you like? Very. We've been together for just over 6 years and married for about 4 1/2.
Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous? No
Are you religious? Yes
What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? I had a crush on Danny L. for about 3 years in school.
Are you happy? For the most part, yes.
What's more important, trust or happiness? Trust. If I can't trust you, I can't be happy with you.
Honestly, do you see yourself as a slut? I'm 36 years old & have had 5 lovers. No, I'm not a slut.
Does anyone hate you? I hope not.
If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would play you? No clue.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? Either Shawn or Chris.
Would you rather have love or money? Love
What is the meaning of life? See City Slickers for the answer to that one.
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? A small white one, maybe.
What's harder: to forgive for someone's wrong doing or to forget? To forget it.
Do you believe exes can be friends? To a point, yes.
Do you have a picture of you kissing someone? I don't think so...
Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? Yes, for about 6 months. After that, I moved out here.
Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it? Oh, if only that were true...
How are things between you and the person you like/love/are with? Pretty good.
What's the most important thing in a relationship? Love, trust, honest communication
Would you rather be hated for who your are or loved for something your not? Hated for who I am
Do you regret doing something today? Not really. I mean, I should've gotten up earlier & put dinner in the crock pot then but it's not something I'm going to twist my fingers about.
What would you do if your ex confessed they still had feelings for you? Say something along the lines of "I'm sorry but I'm married & happy."
Would you ever have sex before marriage? I did.
Are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yes & I hate it.
What do you fear the most? The person/thing that's waiting for me in the dark that I can't see but that can easily see me.
Are you keeping a big secret right now? No
Have you ever broken someone's heart? I think so.
Have you ever had YOUR heart broken? Yes
What is something you're not excited about? Coming back to work tomorrow.
Do you know anyone that wants you dead? No & I hope no one does!
Do you ever want someone to just love you? Of course. Who doesn't?
If you're really in love, will you always go back to them no matter what? I don't know...
What do you think happens to us after we die? We're judged & then either sent to Heaven or Hell.
Do you believe in love at first sight? More like Lust at first sight.
How do you vent your anger? Various ways.
Do you miss the way things used to be? I miss the simplicity. When things are really bad here, I say things (to myself) like, "I want to go home." "Home" meaning back to Phoenix. I don't really WANT to leave my husband or son, though. I just want to go back to the way things were when my parents still lived there & I was hanging out with Jen every weekend, going out to the museum or watching Patrick Swayze dance at a charity benefit.
Who is the last person you laughed with? A guest who asked me where he could go to get some MSG.
Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your partner? No. Just. No.
How many kids do you want to have? I have a stepson but I'd love to have one of my own.
Is there drama in your life right now? When isn't there? It's a matter of how much drama and from where it's coming.
Are you in love? Yes! :^D
Do you have it in your heart to forgive? I hope so.
Do you have morals? Yes
Are you nice to people who don't deserve it? Sometimes
Are you happy with the person you are becoming? For the most part.
Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh? No. How boring would that be?
When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep? It's been a while.
Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly? Sure.
Would you fall apart if the last person you kissed died? Very much so. The last person I kissed was my husband.
What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you? Miss her terribly.
What do you think about death? I try not to.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? Yes
Dark hair or light hair on the opposite sex? Dark hair, light blue eyes. ::heartsmile::
Do you think the world owes you something? No
Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago? Of course, but not radically so. I do think I've done a lot of growing up the last 5 years though.
Do you ever wish you were a better person? Of course.
Have you cried today? No.
Do you think you've ruined your chances with someone? I had a job interview Friday morning that I think I bombed but I'm not sure.
Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? Yes
Are you a patient person? I can be
Were you happy when you woke up today? No but then I wasn't UNhappy either.
Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see/hear it? Yes
In the past week, have you cried hysterically in front of a friend? No.
Do you have a lot to learn? Don't we all?
If you could change someone who would it be and why? I don't really want to change anyone. It's not my job. I either have to accept them for the way they are or not.
Does the future excite or scare you? Both
Do you find quotes that you feel had been written for you? Sometimes
Are you happy with the life you have? Yes.
Do you ever wish you could just go to sleep but never wake up? No.
Do you hate anybody? No
Is tomorrow gonna be a good day? Hope so
When was the last time you saw the person you fell hardest for? This evening. He & Chris came to see me for a little while.
Do you think high school relationships can last? Some can. My parents' has.
What was the last thing you laughed really hard about? Shawn, Chris & I were at the grocery store the other day. There was a display of various produce in containers that were resting in ice chips/pellets. I grabbed a handful when Chris' back was turned, walked around him and put it right down the back of his shirt. Now, the shirt wasn't tucked in so the majority of it just slipped right through but I guess some of it stayed because he stood up in the cart, with his hands down the seat of his pants & yelled loud enough for just about everyone to hear, "I'VE GOT TO GET THE ICE OUT OF MY PANTS!!!" Stopped me dead in my tracks & just had me
rolling! The look on his face was just priceless. He wasn't too happy with me though. *snork*
Where is the last person you kissed? Probably hitting the shower, getting ready for work.
Are you missing anybody right now? Always
Do you want to fall in love in the next couple of months? I'd like to STAY in love. How about that? Even better. I'd like to KEEP falling in love with my husband.
Do you think that you'll will ever live a happy life with somebody someday? I'm living my happy life right now.
Is there someone that you cant stop thinking about that doesnt know it? Not really.
Is honestly really the best policy? Not always but usually.
Do you tend to hide or show your feelings? Hide
Do you care if people don't like you? Depends on who & why.
Were you happy when you woke up this morning? Apparently you weren't listening when I answered this EXACT question before.
Are you a friendly person? I try to be.
If you could go back in time, knowing what you know now, would you do it? Yes, but a little differently.
What does your ex think about you? Don't know. Maybe you should ask one of them.
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad? Shawn, Zen
What is the last thing you accomplished? lol I made coffee. Does that count?
What is something you want right now? To hit the drive thru on the way home. Don't have the money though.
Do you want someone back in your life? Just my friends that have drifted.
Do you ever wish that you could be a little kid again? Yes. Again, going back to the whole simplicity thing.
Do you tend to make relationships complicated? You mean, more than they already are?
If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you? Of course not!
When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Shawn & I met Lorna (Chris' mom) at the court house last month. It was one of the last steps to take before Chris' lawsuit finally settled. She hadn't contacted Chris in over a month & the only time she saw him was when we sought her out at the store where she works. We all did our business and left. Not once did she even ask how Chris was.
Who currently has your heart? Shawn & Chris
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? Yes, that would Shawn.
What is last really sweet thing someone did for you? Umm... Well, he hasn't done it yet but Shawn told me that he was going to get me a $250 gift card for Barnes & Noble for Christmas. He says to just drop me off & that he'd be back to pick me up about 4 hours later. When he told me this, I actually teared up. No husband. No child. Just me. In a book store. With more money than I'll probably spend. *sigh* I'm so looking forward to it.
Who was the last person to comfort you as you cried? Either Shawn or Jen
Do you have a reason to smile right now? We all do, no matter how small. (amen to that - cb)
Have you ever felt like you lost a part of yourself? A time or three. Yes.
When was the last time you prayed? Last night.
Have you ever been to therapy? Once. I got dumped by my first serious boyfriend & my dad left, all within the two weeks before Christmas. After that, I couldn't sleep & kept getting headaches.
Where is your ex boyfriend right now and what is he doing? I would imagine that they're all either working or hanging out with their families.
Can you tell who's fake and who's real anymore? For the most part, I think.
What is the best gift you ever recieved? Umm....
Is there someone who you would do absolutely anything for? Yes
Is there someone who always lets you down and disappoints you? Not always.
Have you ever felt replaced? Yes
Are you for or against abortion? I'm for CHOICE (yep, me too - cb)
Do you cry often and easily? Not really.
Have you ever wanted someone that you couldn't have? I had a HUGE crush on this guy, Danny, in junior high. Lasted through to my sophomore year. The boy was just FINE.
Do you want to get married someday? I already have.
How many serious relationships have you been in? Two
Is there someone that you wish would just trust you? Not that I can really think of.
Do you wish that you could take back some things that you have said? Who doesn't?
Do you believe in karma? ...Didn't we do this already, too? (i think so - cb)
If your ex said they hated you, how would you feel? I'd be sad & confused because I don't think I've done anything to cause them to hate me.
Do you think relationships are ever worth it? Of course.
Do you trust others easily? Not really
Have you been hurt too much? I don't know about 'too much' but I don't want to be hurt anymore.
Do you consider yourself to be heartless? Of course not.
Do you believe that once a cheater, always a cheater? No
When was the last time karma bit you in the ass? I used to look at parents with handicapped children & think, "There but for the grace of God, go I." Now, I have fallen hopelessy & hardcore in love with my stepson who is mentally handicapped. So, yes, Karma has bitten me in the ass but does that necessarily mean that it was a bad thing?
Finished: 10:04p