i was hesitant about saying this on here because i guess i made it an
unwritten rule to only dedicate this space to the old love...
but my life, my present, seems to be taking over and i can't hide it.
i've had a friend, an online friend, for two years.
so this friendship existed before he broke up with me.
we live greatly apart from each other,
and never planned on meeting.
i can't say i didn't want to, but i didn't mention it because
i felt i'd be risking too much.
aside from an age gap (he's the older one), and
distance, i just felt like the odds were against our friendship,
but even more so if we met.
but i enjoy our IM conversations so much...
our friendship was so clean, fun, supportive, and compatible.
i don't know - all i know is that i know him better than
even some friends in real life.
does that make sense?
i was afraid of losing that if we met and things went weird.
so, the real story begins here!
to make a long story short, he came to my state for vacations with a friend.
later i kind of signed myself up to tag along with them somewhere,
but in the end i couldn't make it.
so he's been in my time zone for a few days now
and has been updating me all through the trip via e-mails.
last night he sent me an e-mail...
and i dared to
ask if he wanted to talk on the phone.
this would be the first time ever.
he said yes....
and it was so GREAT!!
we talked for almost TWO hours, and neither of us wanted
to hang up!
but it was about 1 AM and we had to.
our conversation was just like or even better
than i had ever hoped for it to be.
we were laughing, i was doing a lot of the talking...
and i think we even...god forbid.
flirted.
sigh.
i have not been able to get this out of my head.
i hope he feels the same.
i know we're just great friends and all we can ever be.
haha-but hey! did i mention he's
devilishly HANDSOME??!
he is.
be jealous!!!!
^_^
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