Help me stop. I don't want to end up like her. I want my life to be different. But no one will help. I have to help myself. Keep telling me this. It will help me get through this then everything will be even better.
Help yourself or seek professional help. If professional help is not an option, you should seek family and/or friends. If that is not an option, you could consider talking to someone anonymously on a hotline.
The first step to getting help sometimes, is admitting you need help. Now you need to tell the person(s) who can help you that you need them to help you. Slowly but surely will things start to work out.