i have a dream. i want to live somewhere else. everyone thinks i'm seriously thinking about moving away. i can't breathe here. thing is, i don't think i can. i'm being told i'm being selfish for taking my son away from all his family. i guess in a way they are right. i see it as new adventures and experiences for him. they see it as me taking him away from them. can't win. damned if i do and damned if i don't.