"I have this weekend off, want to hang out?"
She spoke softly "I'm going to Columbus"
Before I could stop the words they came out of my mouth "Again? Is there someone special there?"
She looked at her feet and I already knew her answer before she said "yes"
I felt my heart go to my chest. I felt like I couldn't breathe, like all the air had been sucked out of my chest. I tried to gain composure. I tried to act normal.
"Who?"
"Jessica."
I knew this was coming. I want her to be happy. I have tried to prepare myself for this conversation for months. She has every right to find someone and I want her to... but my heart is screaming at me.
That night long after she had gone and I was alone in my room I let myself feel. I cried and cried...so hard that when I woke up 6 hours later I still cried.
She texted me and asked if I was okay. Said that it was hard to tell the person she loved that she was dating someone. I couldn't tell her how I feel because I don't want to put my burdons on her. I told her I was fine and I was happy for her.
I did some snooping. I couldn't help it. I looked up Jessica on facebook. She had a few public pictures of her and my love, and wrote about how happy they are.
I don't know why I torture myself.
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