Walking alone

So things have been kinda sucky lately. I feel like Im slowly becoming alone and Gaby keeps taking me as a sucker. Its like the honeymoon is way over & now he is just the typical man that everybody has. He has just been so selfish lately. The other day he said he was helping his friend clean his room for money so I went out of my way & used my gas money to bring him. When which by the way he shouldve gave me but he accidently threw $10 away...so pissed about that. So he goes and doesnt even come back that night. If he knew he wasnt gonna be able to come home then he shouldve waited until the next day & leave earlier. But of course he doesnt think like that. So here I am thinking *well at least he should have some gas money seeing as we are so broke*. But stupid Luz....wrong again!! He came back with a bag of clothes that Justin didnt want anymore & a pack of cigerettes. Again he is just so selfish. He knew I was mad so at least he could have gave me $5 for some gas. But all he cares about himself...I can imagine how things are gonna be when the baby is born. And there is just so much going on. I need to get money for the cable, have no food in the house, need money for the down payment for the new apartment, and need money to get the baby's stuff, and money for the baby shower. This is just starting to be too much for me & everyone says that they can help but no body ever really comes through. I dont even feel like Gaby is going through this with me. He doesnt care about anything that needs to be done. We cant even find a place to throw the baby shower. I just wish I knew what to do.

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