What do you do when your heart and your head are battling? My heart is saying "no, you love him" and my mind is saying "this isnt going to work" Somtimes my head speaks to my mind and he listens, but other times my mind speaks to my heart and she is over powered. Physicly i am tired and food is the last thing on my mind.
Kyle was supposed to work today, but for some reason he didnt sleep well last night so hes home. I txted him saying that im comin over inbetween classes to talk. he asked if it was bad, and about him. I hesitate everytime he asks me that. Like he knows somethings wrong.
I keep thinking about losing the life we have. The times we party on the weekends and have sleepovers that last all weekend. The times we cuddle and wresal around with eachother. Moments ive laughed and cried. I think about losing bjs house and being alone. Im in class so i cant go on, bc ill cry..
Today is my chance to talk to him and i want him to know that the idea of us not being together kills me, but that im not so sure were in the same place in life anymore.
Please mish me luck. |