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thanks
my moods are a lot higher now. i have realized my friendship with victoria might be poisonous and it might not be at the same time.
she forced me to eat dinner tonight. she asked if i was a recovering anorexic; its like she can see it too. i think she used to be bulimic, but im not one to ask.
we watched that stupid reality show with the playmates on it for hours as she picked out their physical traits that she wants. their legs, their breasts, their collar bones, there tone arses... the works.
she looked at me and said, "lets get hot together". in eating disorder talk thats "lets count our every calorie, and each others, from now on". i miss diet buddies that were acutally as strict as myself.
she was the cheer captain of my high school, so i think i can learn a thing or two from her. and i think my horrible mood this morning had to do with strictly being a female and hormonal.
my bloating went away and victoria has me fashion my new bikini for her so i could finally start getting use to being out in public with it. i told her where i should improve and she wasn't rude about my body at all even though she weighs 140 and reaches 5'10. shes got a sick body but shes striving to lose another 15 pounds.
whatever helps you sleep at night. were working out and going to the library tomorrow to work on our papers simultaneuously. i haven't felt this close to anyone in a long time. oh, and we start tanning on monday.
the tanning salon is a 30 minute walkm one way. i cannot wait.theres no greater bond than two girls who strive to have the same figure and who both have the same motives and self control.
no greater bond.
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