[11:40 pm] It's so weird being back. There's so much to talk about. My mother and I are moving out in a week or two. I have to get my own place and km finally in a position to move out. Our relationship hasn't changed. Hopefully me moving out will change that. I deleted my Prose Box diary. The few people I actually read on there stopped writing. There was Andrea, the hot Canadian, and this really pretty lady who lost her dad. Once they left it wasn't the same.
The Canadian is beyond beautiful. I think she makes my crush look average. I have several but they don't even come close. I saw one the other day. There's this nurse that works at this place that I clean and I saw her. I've only seen pictures of her on their Facebook page and some old photos on her Facebook. Seeing her in person was devastating. How can someone be that beautiful? Seeing her in person was an entirely different experience.
I even made a Craigslist missed connection and got a reply. Some lady told me that my missed connection made her cry.
I know I come off as a pig a good deal of the time but, when I am genuinely interested in someone it's as if I turn into that guy I used to be; before Adrienne and Alyssa. Before Andrea...
That or I'm just really attracted to beautiful ladies. But let's ask the popular question. "What do you have to offer?" said Andrea.
Nothing...
Even now I still don't have anything to offer. I'm making good money but why should that make a difference? It's because girls like guy with a pocket full of cold hard cash. No pun intended.
I just want someone to like me for me. I know I'm not that great looking and I struggle with my weight; but can't I get a chance to show that I'm worth it?
Kaylea and I stopped talking a few weeks ago.
It was right when I changed my Facebook status to in a relationship. She'll never leave her husband even though he doesn't care about her anymore. She's just with him because he pays her bills. Supposedly he's rich. Go figure. Now do you see why I don't want someone to like me for my money?
Monday I need to pick up they keys to my apartment. It isn't super fancy or anything. The rent is $520 a month with free utilities. It's just me and my cat. We don't need anything fancy. My mom's pretty upset that I want it but why do I need a fancy apartment? It's just me and Bella. She says this is why no one wants to date me, because I like to live in poverty.
What?
I just thought it was a decent deal. I get to stay in the town I love. The cops all know me. Everyone knows me and it's all because if my car. Why move? I like it here and the traffic, well there isn't any.
Just because I'm making money doesn't mean I have to have the best. It's just me. I'd be happy renting out a shop and living in it.
That and I'm buying a second car. I have to have proof of income for two years since I'm self employed before I can get a loan for a house. Why buy a house when you can buy a shop?
My phone's about to die. So I'll just post a few photos.
The girl with the baby is the nurse. It's an older photo and her hair is brown. The blonde in black is Kaylea. She's incredibly sweet. I have a huge crush on her. The one with brown hair is the Canadian. Absolutely perfect.
The meme is my car and the two white cars are the new version of my car. The Chevy SS. Hopefully if things continue to go my way I'll pick one up in the next few months.
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