The end is in sight!!!

05/22/2009

well I had my appointment this morning and it went really good! i am STILL only 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced but she said my cervix was very soft and she says "well do you want to wait it out or do you want me to check the induction schedule?" and I said "INDUCE ME PLEASE!!" HHAHA I am so ready to be done! so she said they wont do inductions before 39 weeks and I will be 39 weeks tomorrow and she said they wont be able to get me in then but she would have the nurse check the schedule and see when they could get me in. So the nurse calls back and my induction is set for Wednesday at 6 AM!! I cant wait to be done! I am a little more nervous this time than I was with Brady because this time I have high expectations of how I want the birth to go when with Brady I didnt have any. But his delivery went really smooth, it was long but I only needed 3 internal stitches and recovery wasnt bad. PLus he was an angel baby I swear he was so good. So I am nervous about how the delivery will go and how the baby will be. I hope he has Bradys personality. I am also nervous about how Brady will react to the baby and how he will be while I am in the hospital. Right after we moved he was screwed up for like a week because he is on such a schedule and is always with me or Aaron and he had other people watching him and stayed at my mom a couple nights while we worked on the house and he was so clingy to me for a week after. I just hope he will be ok with everything while I am in the hospital and after we are home. I am going to be so emotional the next 2 weeks or so I can just tell. It makes me sad to look at Brady and know that our time alone together is almost over and I wont be able to give him the attention I do now. But I also know that I am giving him a gift by giving him a brother. Hopefully they will grow up to be best friends. Alright I am getting all emotional now so I am gonna get off here!