I keep disappearing from the world as everybody else knows it. Or maybe it's just that I'm too lazy to reach a line of communication with people I feel don't reciprocate... anything. I enjoy being self-serving.
This quarter is coming to a head very quickly and I guess I just assumed I had so much more time. Time. What a fucking annoying concept. These thoughts made so much more sense last week when my mind was foggy with images and words. God I love hallucinogens.
What I don't love is my shitty, pale skin. So many flaws and imperfections and visible scars and ugliness. Being white is being so many other shades of pink and purple and red and blotch.
I got to see Todd Snider on Sat. night and it was one of the greatest shows I've been to. It just felt so good to be there. After, I met Todd and he gave me this big hug that made me feel like there really are nice people in the world. Afterward I went and had one of the greatest orgasms of my life.
Have a friend who's had a spiritual awakening in which she feels it necessary to hitchhike up the coast to see me in June. I don't think she realizes what the rest of the world is actually like. She's too sheltered in her haze of pot smoke and "spiritual fantacism." Whatever the hell that means. I say go for it. I just hope I don't lose her to some asshole who decides he wants to keep her for himself.
No go on the cute-boy front in my class. He's still fun to talk to and I like having an ally in that class because there's some asshole who is joining forces with some bullshit Christian movement that wants to translate Bibles into every little tribal language so that those poor people are exposed to the bullshittiness of Western Christianity. The New Testament of all things. I'm so tired of people having the allusion that they can make decisions for other people and then when they find out that their little subjects don't want to comply they wonder why. It just angers me that no one seems to want to learn from history, but rather says they think history is boring. I want progress back.
Oh, I might be assisting on the digital archiving of essentially the entire Iron Age of Cyprus. That means either going to Cyprus for a while (hopefully for free if my professor friend can get the money) or Russia or Italy or some other place. Really quite an incredible task that I would be incredibly excited to be a part of.
No more from me. |
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