well i am probably just coming off and some immature phsyco depresso babbler because the only time i come on here is to rant out all of my negetive horrible thoughts.. i talked with my sister a little today and she thinks i should go see a shrink/get medicines or something. i probably should.. the thing is, i'm no good at talking. really, im not.
i re kindled my friendhsip with this guy from highschool, and we hung out this past weekend.. went on a weekend trip with some of our friends. we totally flirted a bunch, and kissed (which probably doesnt count cuz we were wasted) and slept in the same bed . and i genuinly like him, minus his anger issues.. i can really talk with him. which is werid. cuz ive NEVER had that with a guy, being able to talk about.. anything, really. anyways, he drapes his arm around me the next day and casually says 'oh, i think you should know.. i have a girlfirned.'
why ami always that girl? the 'chick on the side' not the GIRLfriend. i want to be the god damn griflriend! is there something wrong with me ? cuz i don't think there is. i promise i'm not a real phsyco looney.. i just get into really bad funks. but i dont let anyone know about it, so it shouldnt be a problem! i dont broadcast it to the world! (other than my bloop diary).
poop.
'deliver us from eva' is a really great movie.
i should have gone out tonight. there was alot going on. but i didn't. i even did my hair and got dressed. but it was too late. it was like 12:30. bleeeh..
why ami writing all this down? diary's are REALLY weird
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