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 | Gigantic... Me
I kind of hate myself a little more each time I look in the mirror. Especially when I get in the shower. It makes me want to smash the mirror and make the image go away.
So hence the weight loss challenge at work.
I've come to realize that if I want my daughter to be happy... I've got to set an example.
I need to be happy with the way I am and maybe losing the baby weight, and physically feeling better will help.
Color me annoyed...
I got a call back from my dr today reguarding my shoulder.
The x-ray came back normal.
Which means they kind of aren't sure why it cracks and pops, or why it hurts. Or where the heck the huge muscle spasm in my shoulder/neck area came from.
They recommended physical therapy.
Ummm.... Wait.... if you don't know what's wrong with it... how can you know what will fix it?
Sad.... angry... kind of numb
I'm probably going to be talking to a lawyer in the next few weeks.
I've had no contact from Pete about Elora.
And it's sad... for them. I shouldn't feel bad for him but I do.
I get to be part of this amazing little girl's life... and he's choosing not to.
That makes me sad.
The reason I'm talking to a lawyer is to cut his parental rights.
He isn't on the birth certificate, which I'm pretty sure will make it a little more complicated (hence talking to the lawyer) but if he suddenly changes his mind and wants to take her away.... right now he could cause lots of trouble legally. Not to mention all the emotional shit going along with it.
I can't deal with the fear of him (or his parents) coming after her someday.
So there's that.
I was also thinking of having something drawn up to say who she lives with if anything ever happens to me.
Morbid.
But I like to be prepared.
And now onto happier news....
I have to see if I can get a video of her doing it. But every time I get the camera out and point it at her my kid looks at me with this huge stare (which is saying something since she's got cute big ol'bug eyes) and stops doing what ever she was doing until the camera goes away.
Anyway... I'll jsut copy and paste my facebook status to let you guys know what the happy news is. 
Dear Everybody,
Hide anything breakable, lock all cabinets, if you have hatches you might want to batten them down.
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She might not go very fast or very far.... but Elora can crawl.♥♥
And on that note... Goodnight. |
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i hope that u get ur questions answered!
