ocument type="layout" layout="Rainbow Dripping" layout_href="/lovebipolarinc/rainbowdripping" author="Beth@Love Bipolar Inc." author_href="/lovebipolarinc">
 | First... a little disclaimer...
This entry is supposed to be about things you never wished you'd done. I'm a little odd in that regard. Yes there are things I look back on and think about changing. But every moment I've ever had has lead me to being the person I am and will be. I think sitting and wishing things were different is kind of a waste of time. unless you're trying to learn from your "mistakes" and grow.
I hate when people sit there and bemoan their lives/situations and don't do anything to change.
I think my new motto just might be...
"You must be the change you wish to see in the world." - Mohandas Gandhi
And now... 6 Things I wish...
1) I really wish I had found Vet Tech school instead of wasting time and money at Clarion. I'd have a different lifestyle and would probably have been able to live on my own by now.
2) Fighting with my mom so much.
Now here is something I can change. And I will. I'm going to talk to her more often, try and communicate with her better. The problem seems to be that we each assume we know what the other is thinking and just let our emotions run our mouths and end up fighting. I need to be a better listener.
3) I really do wish that I had chosen a better person to have a baby with. I wouldn't change a thing about Elora. But I still can't help wishing I had support on that end. But it's something I can learn from. I know what I want in life. And I can make sure the person I'm with knows too.
4) Having sex with Josh. It was my first "real boyfriend". It was also hours of crying that were unnecessary when we broke up. Yes it was ages ago ( I was 16) but you know what? When I look back on it? A boy that sets his own hair on fire? Not worth anyone's tears.
5) I'm never ever ever going to let someone like the guy I dated after Josh into my life again. He was controlling and an all around jerk. I lost who I was for a while. Not good.
6) I wish I had handled a lot of the stupid fights I got into with my ex better. I know we were both immature for the kind of relationship we were in. Because I wasn't ready to tell any one that I was dating a girl. So I stopped dating her. And made out with a mutual friend (who was a guy) thus breaking her heart. Like literally she had chest pains... cause she saw us.. That was poor choice on my part. And it confused the hell out of the guy. So I lost two really good friends on taht one. Hence my theory on love. If you love someone... tell them. In no uncertain terms, how you feel.
Love is like jumping off a cliff. You don't want to jump. Because you're scared. And you know... you could fall.... and go splat. And be a mess. But you're looking across the gap between two cliffs you see... and there's someone on the other side. Who's just as afraid of going splat as you are. So you jump... and sometimes tehy catch you. And you can fly.
I saw the cliff. I saw Emm on the other side. I didn't jump. She did. I wish I had.
Day One: 10 different things you want to say to 10 different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession. |
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