I need out of here
It's ruined. Everything I have tried to establish is ruined. I feel like I'm heading down that lonely, dark path that I've gone down before....and it scares the hell out of me. I just wish that for once, something would work out. It seems, however, that I will never have that luck. Everything always falls apart. I feel like I'm losing everyone who I care about and that I have even just started talking to. I can't handle this again. I am afraid of what it will do to me. Maybe if I were to just pack a bag and leave for a week or so, things would start to work out for me. But in the end I know they won't. I hate writing entries that make me sound like I'm whining, but this is not whining. I know life is hard and I deal with it. But I have realized that I am terrified to be alone....meaning friends, family, relationships....you get the point. Yet at this point, I feel like that is where I'm headed. I feel like no one wants to help me at all. Well at this point, I can't change anyone elses mind. But I would hope that there would be someone there for me....even one person. With my luck, that person will never show....
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