if you don't know by now.
so.
i feel like all my entries are negative.
i promise a positive one soon,
i just really need to get this off my chest.
so. my best friend,
who lives an hour away,
has been ditching me or canceling plans at the last minute
a lot lately. and i mean, we never really see each other.
so it's kind of been pissing me off.
but of course.
i don't say anything.
so she did it thursday.
& she did it again last night.
so finally, i said something to her.
all i get?
"you're being ridiculous"
for telling you how i feel?
she hasn't responded to any other of my messages.
& i'm sorry,
but i don't think i deserve that.
am i really being ridiculous?
why can i not tell my "best friend" when something is bothering me?
and when i do,
why the hell do i get a response like that?
she's supposed to come down tonight apparently.
but i really don't feel like seeing her anymore.
regardless,
she won't message me until i message her.
but this time, i'm not going to.
fuck it.
friendships are a two way street.
or at least, i thought they were. |