_{quite lyrical.}
by just words.

little bitch.

06/11/2013

I really don't know what to do anymore. I need to write .. er .. type. I need this.

I told her that she would have a place to stay. That she wouldn't have to worry about anything. I feel horrible. What do I say to her? What do I do? I didn't think that this would happen. I honestly and truly thought that this would be an okay place for her. I didn't think that it would end up like this.

It was only a kiss.

Haha. Had to.

I don't know what to do myself. I feel lost. I feel exhausted.
We're getting evicted ourselves because I didn't keep my mouth shut. But I couldn't help it! She's my friend! But what kind of friend have I been to her lately? Truth is, I don't know how to be a friend to her. I have no idea what to do. I told her that she wouldn't have to worry about anything. To just concentrate on herself and get back to being okay.

I failed.

Now shes at the point of breaking and/or blowing up. I don't know how to help.
I wish Chris did more to stop Louie.
We have to go back to his parents. And by "we" I mean him and I'm just assuming I can come, too.
If not, then off to Grandpa's I go. -sigh-

And then the guilt hits. Guilt that I have someplace to go be it his parents or Grandpa's, guilt that I couldn't provide her with what I said I would - a home and a friend.

I just don't know what to do. About anything.

Or maybe I do and I'm just turning my head the other way because I don't want to confront anything because I'm a little bitch.