I'm in near tears. I don't know why, technically as I'm in the 'I just can't care any more' category so I shouldn't be having anything affecting me, but...
For some reason, I just want to cry.
I want to cut.
I want the blood to run from my arm because I feel as though I've been not acting on how I feel recently. About a week ago I nearly did cut, I had the knife out and everything. But instead I locked myself into the living room, stayed up all night and watched television until I had to go into work.
And that's supposed to be good. The fact that I didn't cut.
But, it doesn't feel that way.
It's made the urge all the more worse now, because I didn't cut last time.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why am I panicking?
Kya |
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