Theorizing the human defense

01/27/2011

What constitutes the idea of superiority? Is it the idea of acting better than everyone else? Is it the stress of actually BEING better than anyone else? Is it the strive to fool people into believing you are better than everyone else? I have come across this time and time again where I get frustrated regarding the amount of ignorance people carry around as they look to impress people. The only thing they are actually doing is making themselves look like total jerks. How far can a joke be taken before its lack of humor becomes irrelevant and utterly idiotic?

I have dealt with people all of my life. I have dealt with people who have some sort of complex where they think everyone should bow down to them. There is no real reason for it other than the fact that they have some factor missing within their lives and blame their downfalls on their losses. Where does the idea of a joke start to take on actual potential and focused qualities where it could be believed to be true? Could one blame the qualities that have been shown previously and allow those qualities to dictate where the meanings could be skewed? On the same page, could someone claim their idea of a joke is merely a joke to those who call their bluff because they have been found out? To make a statement, let it take its course and then be called out on it. The defense? To become very guarded and claim that it was a joke and 'you obviously didn't get it'.

Yes, somewhat cryptic. No, not for any purpose outside of vocalized, or published, theory. However, I just can't deal with what is to come if it isn't addressed. It's just a bit hard to follow your gut when your gut is what will ultimately break it all apart. The question remains, what constitutes the idea of superiority? And is it my failure to call the bluff on someone else's superiority, prove it so, and realize that the superiority complex was that of my own?

Now, I wrote that as a facebook note in regards to my boyfriend's younger sister. She is 16 years old and so as not to defame the innocent [or at least those pretending to be remotely innocent], her name has been changed. So, I have known Jessica for the better part of 12 years or so. Yes, I have known her longer than her brother, albeit, through my own sister. My sister and Jessica were in girl scouts together and well, yeah. So recently, my facebook page was spammed by the incessant bullshit banter of Jessica regarding her desire for her boyfriend to buy her a car. The conversation evolved as follows:

Jessica [facebook status]: So.. if you think Brandon should buy me a car you should like this status. (;
[insert 50 comments back and forth between Jessica and Brandon]
Me: I think you need to learn how to drive, get a job, get insurance and then think about getting a car on your own account rather than get some kid to buy you one.
*pause for dramatic effect* IS THIS NOT THE MOST LOGICAL THING? /end pause
Jessica: Excuse me Kristin? I'm sorry but I know how to drive, I've drove before. Plenty of times with my aunt thank you very much, sorry if I come off as a bitch, but "that kid" happends to be my Boyfriend of a little more than 4 months. This thing was a joke and you seem to be the only one who couldn't take it that way.

Oooookay. Well, that drove me over the edge. First for her lack of common sense, second for her incessant lies and exaggeration, third because I am an English major and her stupidity just irritated the hell out of me. Now, here are the facts. Jessica is 16. She met Brandon via xbox live. Brandon lives in Texas. She has never met Brandon. As per her facebook, she started her relationship with Brandon on November 16, 2010. This conversation with her occurred January 25, 2011. November 16 --> December 16, January 16...that's 2 months, not 4. You've DROVE before? No. You have DRIVEN before. "That kid" happends? "That kid" happens...and you just happen to not know proper English...or math for that matter. Sorry, Jessica, but your lack of common sense really has put me over.

Corey was correct, I shouldn't have bothered adding her because who she used to be and who she is now are 2 TOTALLY different people. We're talking polar opposites here. I can be a bit blunt, but maybe she should grow up just a little bit. Trust me, I know a thing or two...and I can honestly say that I fear for her. I ought to also throw in that this change in personality, at least in my personal judgement, happened after her father passed away. She was Daddy's Little Girl. Her lack of always getting her way after his death turned her into the crazy psycho bitch she is now. Sure, I'm defaming her, but honestly, I just can't stand to see how her family has been broken apart due greatly to her actions and emotions. Her eldest brother hates her, Corey greatly dislikes her, her younger brother doesn't get along with her and their mother...she doesn't much like her either. I would be ashamed of myself if my own parent didn't like me. I'm not talking that her mother dislikes her actions, I'm talking, her mother doesn't like her.

I feel as if I am not allowing for her explanation, however, I don't believe I have to anymore. There are no excuses anymore. Oh, and I forgot to add that she text messaged Corey about how annoying I am and how I always put her down. That right there, that's a lie. Did I once put her down? I stated what options ought to be travelled rather than having some boy who you "love" and yet have never met, to buy you a car. Let me make this a bit clearer to at least cover my own skin. Everytime she has some sort of downfall with the family or otherwise, she will post about how "Dad would have never wanted this for me..." However, to make it even clearer, I'm pretty sure if their father was around today, she wouldn't be how she is now.

It's pretty damn unfortunate that even before I think of creating a future with Corey, I have to fear how Jessica will feel. Sure, I don't really have to take her feelings about MY future into consideration, however, just making the statement that I care how she feels has already put a damper on things. I guess it's fortunate that the rest of the family likes me...and they all feel the same way I do. What a pity.