Considerations

11/30/2008

I have a small bottle of vodka and a pack of 16 extra strength paracetamol. And my knife, of course, as always.

I don't want anyone to read this. Any comments that reach me will be too late either way - either I'll be wandering around alive and well or dead. It's not a choice I've made yet. I'm not even a hundred percent sure this would kill me.

However, if I took all the pills and then slit my throat I'd probably die.

I promised I wouldn't do this again. But sometimes it's hard to see further than the next five minutes.

Hush, Lentil. Be a good girl.

I just need to say it. I just need to put it down and record it. I need it to be somewhere where it might be read, even if it isn't.