So I've been noticing and worrying over my heartbeat for months now, since febuary. When something horrible happened. I'm scared when it gets too fast, I went to the nurse about it, and . the other night when I thought it was too fast i went and climbed into my mums bed becascause i was so afriad. I told her id had a nigtmare or some shit. So i looked it up on the internet. And I think I've got something called cardiophobia. Its where you're scared about your heart rate increasing.
I didn't think there was such a thing, but im glad i found out. Now i can do something about it.
Ive been meaning to look it up for a while now, but then the bed thing is that alcohol makes your heart speed up. hence why i havent been drinking as much as i could have these past few weeks.
It keeps me up at night if i think my pulse is too high. i cant get off to sleep from worrying about it. and often going to sleep is the only way to get away from it |