Today is gonna be fucking awful. I mean awful hellish nasty ness. C+C waste of life, followed by no food. Then 6 frees with nothing more to do than be hungry and do work. And a german speaking session and a counselling session. Then finally geogrpahy which I like. I just hope she hasnt got anything nasty planned for us like a mock exam. Teachers here have a habit of doing that, just when you think its the last day and its safe to relax . . . EXAM TIME
Fuckers.
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Just had the old german speaking and she says shes very proud of me and reckons ill get an A if I get my verbs right and don't be racist.
But then I had tutor and everyone was being horrible about me eating plums, and how its all I eat and I'm like I have a marmite sandwich too. I just eat a plum in tutor cos I'm a captive audience and otherwise i wouldn't eat fruit at all. Gr!
And after that it was off to counselling. I have to admit I let her have it. Everything and anything that was on my mind I hurled at her to see if I got a reaction more than "mmm"
I didn't.
Not even when I told her about my brother and what he did, or my mum not even caring that I've been predicted 3 A's and a B, and how she threw my report on the ground. I wonder would that have happened if id been predicted 4 A's?
But still the old cow remained silent. I actually asked her for her "profesional" *cough cough* opinion on how to get my old confidence back. And the only thing expert about her reply was the way she dodged it. Ignorant cow. And I hate the way she looks at me. I thought maybe if I really let her have it then something worthwhile may come of this. I know it was this way before when I wouldnt tell the woman anything, and that was understandable, but this time Ive pretty much let on everything. About how I didnt have the confidence to go to the skatepark on monday night, and it made me cry beacuse i was so angry and annoyed at myself. She said "mmmm"
And I got really angry and raised my voice and all I got was "mmm" seriously i could counsell myself if i just stood in front of a blank wall with hmm written on it.
good job its the last day.
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Went sunbathing with people outside the ICT block today. Was nice, but they were offering toblerone to everyone but I had to say no. Same in geography - teacher was giving everyone mini eggs but I had to say no as well. Doesn't matter, its all for the bigger picture. Or smaller, I hope. |