Thats the best thing, listening to loud music that I havent heard for years an drinking stronbow just to the point where I feel relaxed. This my friends is what you need.
~but~
I need to get rid of these horrible no confidence feelings. I mean it's been growing for some time, and today at Jimmy's house it was a real struggle to get in the bath and let him see me naked. Before I wouldn't even have cared, but now its like a major crisis. It's taking me ages to decide what to wear in the morning cos everything I see looks shit on me, and I'm popping diet pills 3 times a day to try and do some good.
I can't help comparing myself to skinny-as-hell girls at college, walking round with tiny littel skirts which i couldn't imagine getting my fat arse into. Jimmy deserves a decent girlfriend thats thin and pretty and looks good and isnt tired all the time and a complete lard arse. I wish i was skinnier. |