One awful night, and another boring day

10/01/2009

God Last night was awful. At about 3 am some random alarm started going off. I think it was ours, like a burgalar alarm or something. It stayed on for near on 2 hours. Thank god for those earplugs. That and the morning military convoy coming past my window, AND the nightly druknen people.
I would have been pissed off, but i have nothing to get up for so I dont really care.
Life is so fucking boring here. Every day is the same. 2 hours of sitting in a chair listening to someone rant, then give you some vague idea of work you might or might not have to do. I cant believe they're going to set me an essay next week after no actual teaching of what the essay is on. Im just gonna write my name and hand it back.
Its all I can do.
They've given me no idea of how much background reading i should be doing, only a gigantic list of all the books they want me to get. Im confused and annoyed. I mean fuck, how much are we paying these people and they dont even tell us anything!
Ive said to myself that ill stick it out till the end of this term and then see. I dont want to give up, but this whole thing is nothing like i expected it to be. Nothing like it at all. Id feel like a failure if i went home again, but theres no point paying to put myself through this whole awful process if im hating every minute. And besides, from what ive seen its going to be a damn uphill struggle to squeeze a degree out of this mess.