*Mama Bear*'s Diary
by *Mama Bear*

1 Hello!!

05/25/2013

All About Us

Ok, so I decided to use my first entry to tell you about me and my babies <3

My name is Mandi. I dubbed myself "Mama Bear" after having my 3 wonderful kids. My oldest is Adisyn and she was born August 16th, 2007. I was totally unprepared for her and had just gotten out of an abusive relationship with her father, whom she knows nothing about to this day. He tried to kill us when I was 3 months along so I figured he didnt deserve the right to know her. She's happy with my 2nd son's father, who has claimed her as his and loves her just the same. Ehren is my 2nd child. He was born December 15th, 2009. Again, I wasn't totally prepared for another child, and again I was fresh outta a relationship. But still on good terms with his father Josh. Both Adisyn and Ehren has blond hair and blue eyes. They both pass off as from the same father, which I love cause it keeps people from poking their noses in where it shouldnt be. Rylee, my 3rd "surprise" was born Novemeber 5th, 2012. He was another surprise that i wasn't prepared for and even more unprepared when he decided to come 2 weeks early. I was unprepared for what complications would arise from his untimely birth But nonetheless I had, again, fallen in love. My kids has opened my heart so much more than I thought would EVER be possible. With them in my life, I never cared for a boyfriend. I was content raising them and making the best of my life. That's not to say that I was always single...cause I wasn't. I just never looked into making things more committed with them. After all, who could possibly be fit to raise my kids and love them as I have? (yes, I know it was a dumb thought)

To this day, I am single...for now. My middle son's father walked out after a stupid fight. yes, imma tell you about the fight and you tell me who was in the wrong (prolly me lol) It all started the day before...Josh was quitting smoking both weed and ciggs. We were in the middle of potty training Ehren (he's behind) and he had had an accident. Josh picked him up by his head and started screaming at him. I yelled at Josh and he got mad and went to the room until I had to leave for work at 4pm. I got off at 7am and when I got home and took my nap, I woke up to him looking for his mma gloves. (he trains and fights in the cage) Well, he was, again, yelling at the kids about losing them and I told him that he should have put them up. "Oh, so you're saying it's my fault?" I told him yes. That if he didnt want the kids playing with his stuff then he should have put them up. He got mad and stormed off down the hallway mouthing off. I told him he needed to drop the attitude and he said "or what? you'll make me leave?" i told him that my mama raised me to never rely on and man and i wasnt about to start now. he couldnt keep a job. and when he did have a job it was flipping burgers because he refused to get his GED. anyways, back to the fight, he started mouthing off again calling me a (forgive my language) cunt, a whore, a bitch. All in front of my kids!! I told him he was gonna have to go because I couldnt have the fighting near the kids. It's bad enough that Adisyn saw my ex beat the hell outta me. He yelled at me "i wish you were never the mother of my son" and started packing his stuff. I had to leave for work soon and so I told him that he needed to be gone within the hour... he said he would when he got his stuff together. i told him i would help him and started to set his stuff by my front steps. he wouldnt let me set his stupid gloves outside (which happened to be beside the bed the entire time) so i tried to hand them to Adisyn to put outside for me so I can grab more stuff and he told her "you put those outside i'll beat your f*ckn ass" That got me heated!! I told him no he wouldnt! That just cause he was mad at me that he wouldnt take it out on the kids. So he's been gone... took the tv, car, and 360 lol.

i dont mind...I'm happier now. I can come home from work and there is NO fighting. It peaceful and not much stress. Not to mention I save about 200$ a month from all the $ i gave him from my checks lol. I'll admit that I have my eye on a guy from work. his name is Matthew.