it's a tough beat....
i wrote previously how i ran into my ex, Jennifer....and then again a couple of weeks later.
and she's been fairly embedded in my mind ever since then "like a splinter in my mind driving me mad"
So, i dug her old address, wrote her a letter. something very simple. It ran along the lines of:
"Hey, i really liked chatting with you that day at Algonquin. I was wondering if you'd like to get re-acquainted. I realize i fucked up in some pretty epic ways, but i think i can be the friend you deserve now."
I also asked her, for the sake of my own peace of mind and sanity to please if she received my letter to respond even if it was in a negative so that i'd be able to rest easier.
and two months have passed and no news.
and she's stuck in my brain....merely because it's not 'in order' it's like having all my books neatly organized and having a pile next to the bookcase because there's no room, sure the bookshelf may be all nice and organized but all i see is the pile next to it making a mess.
Much the same with Jennifer.
So......I'm thinking about popping by her place just asking if she got my letter. Then i'll have my answer and can move on.
It's entirely possible, even likely she's moved and never got my letter. The building she is/was(?) in is primarily college students so what do you bet the odds are of one of 'em putting "return to sender" on an envelope would be?
i'm loathe to repeat the kind of stuff that she found so off-putting in the first place...still if she did get my letter then it doesn't matter....
i guess it's a situation where i can't win.....so i can't lose.
tough beat.
good night and good luck! |
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