If you can't live without me, why aren't you dead yet?

you would think after working all night that at 230 in the morning I'd be fast asleep but.. I'm not. and i don't feel tired either.
Luke was in the field for 2 days so I didn't get to talk to him and I know 2 days isn't much at all but when he got back he wanted to skype. never fails however that his friends called so he rather hang out with them instead of talk to me. it's getting really old that his friends come before me after everything we've been through..
I'm beginning to think we are just on separate pages maybe even different books with how we feel about our relationship. it doesn't even seem like he wants to marry me anymore and if I could today I'd marry him a million times.
I wonder if maybe I've become too dependent on him and part of me has a little problem with that since I've never been that person. then again I don't see a problem with me wanting to be taken cre of.
I guess I mostly feel like I'm the only one who even cares about my relationship anymore.