so i met this kid about three months ago, his name is Larry. we spent new years together and that’s how all of this started. he was my new years kiss and i instantly fell for him. we spent all everyday together for the month. everything seemed to perfect, everything about him was so great. he was the first guy i really felt safe with after me and my ex, Harley, broke up. he had told me from the start of everything that he wasn’t ready for a relationship because he had just gotten out of a long term relationship and honestly i was fine with it because i was on the same page. i thought maybe we could help each other move on from our ex’s. we talked about everything even when there was nothing to talk about. he did everything right, it was to good to be true. everyone i knew knew about me and Larry, they all knew what was going on and how strongly i felt about him. out of no where one day he told me that we should stop what we were doing because he didn’t wanna hurt me anymore…which honestly just hurt me more. then i found out he was talking to this girl named Dakota, i was heart broken. i remained friends with him though because i couldn’t imagine him not being in my life at all. he winded up coming over and staying for practically an entire week, we kissed, we cuddled, and things just felt normal. i was starting to feel happy again… then i started realizing him and my best friend, Kayla, flirting, a lot. i tried to talk to her about it but whenever i did she just insisted they were just friends but i knew she was lying. i kept my eye on them, then i pulled a shady move and went through her phone …they were planning on hanging out without me and just lying to me ..they were talking about making out ..about her losing her virginity to him ..it seriously killed me. especially because they both meant so much to me. it was so unreal that two people i loved could go behind me back like that. even though i knew all this i didn’t wanna confront her just yet, i believed that eventually she would tell me, that she would be honest with me, i was right. she finally told me and i told her i knew already. they had made out a couple times behind my back… so my next move was to talk to Larry. i did, he apologized to me and said it would never happen again. i told him how hurt i was and he told me he never meant to hurt me but how could you say that and then make out with my best friend? obviously that’s gonna hurt me, idiot. anyways, he was still chilling with us everyday and things were calm for the most part. then one night i had to go to a friends house to pick something up and when i got back Kayla told me she had something to tell me, instantly i knew it was about Larry. he came into her room looking for me a few minutes after i left and she had told him i would be back or whatever …he sat next to her and started kissing her! AGAIN! she pushed him away and tried to tell him to stop ..he just insisted. i was so done when she told me but she made me swear not to tell him i knew, so i didn’t. i just ignored him. he knew something was bothering me but he didn’t know what. after he left the next day i was talking to Kayla’s cousin, Will. since i had moved in me and him became really close so i felt comfortable talking to him about all this, him and Larry were also really good friends. he didn’t understand why Larry was acting so horrible but he was pissed. then we found out that larry went and told wills girlfriend, Yanet, a bunch of shit about me and will. so from there it just went down hill, we all hated Larry and he knew it. none of us talked to him for a month but it felt like a lifetime…i still thought about him everyday. i just couldn’t understand why he would do any of this to me. one night though when me and Kayla were a little drunk we both texted him, saying we missed him and shit. which was the truth, i missed him so much it hurt. instantly he texted back and it felt like we had never stopped talking. after 2 or 3 days of me and him getting back on the right page i finally got up enough courage to ask him why he had made out with Kayla? especially after i talked to him about it. he then started to explain to me that he felt like i threw him away for will and he was hurt and that he also heard me and will were telling people lies about him, which i would never do. he then told me he needed me, he missed me, and he loved me, it was honestly the best text i had ever gotten. we made a promise to each other to never hurt one another ever again and since then its been great. i saw him yesterday and hopefully i am gonna see him today, it was the best feeling in the entire world being able to hug him and kiss him again. i can tell Kayla’s jealous but i don’t care, he was mine first and will always be mine. she had no right doing what she did so i really could care less how she feels about me and him being back together. i just pray to god that he doesn’t break this promise to me because i don’t think i can take anymore pain. i love this kid, more then i thought i ever could. everyone deserves a second chance, right? should i trust him? .. :/ |
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