Right now as I type this I'm doing this out of anger and disstain I have for the person that birthed me 29 years go and that is my mother and her treatment towards me and the choices I have made in the last week bout money right now I have no respect for her as a mother cause all she does go to work and come home and treat me like trash and verbally abuse me in a way where I stay in my room most of the time at home and she has never respected who I have dated or currently dating cause they don't have "catholic" values and/or go to church and yet I ask her a question she pretty much fucking ingores me like I shouldn't be around and I have a feeling that she never wanted me at all cause I hear stories from both sides of my family that my mom was drinking while preggo with me and yet she drinks like a sailor and get very verbally abusive at me and I'm at the point now where I have gotten so stressed out I get voliently ill and throw up all the time and I'm also eatting alot more cause of her treatment of me and I would list the things she has done but I won't cause of the bad memories right now she don't like either my ex or the person I'm currently dating all cause there not "catholic" or "not the right race" in her eyes and it pisses me off that she does that and also saying "white people always uses black people for money cause were dumb and stupid" and that pissed me off so bad that I wanted to slap her but I didn't cause I don't believe in hitting a lady (even though my mother is cold hearted cunt) and now after what happen this morning I fucking give up with my family and life |