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Struggles no more.. (:
by Emmie x

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.. still drunk. Has he cheated?

12/09/2010




2 PM

Well i did go to pub yesterday with a few people. I still ended up bloody rawing! And now i'm drunk again. Opened the wine at 9 this morning. I can't stop crying - i know drink doesn't help - but it has to be done. Atleast if i'm out of it,, well,, i don't know.

I smashed my phone up last night so i'm borrowing Shane's only after what a few people've said about him sorting out other girls curiosity got the best of me so i've checked his messages. Loads to 3 different girls asking if they're at home 'cos he wants to go round.. only there were sent at the time we found out we were pregnant & what's pissed me off more, at the time i'd miscarried. AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! I can't stop crying. I hope they're jus friends. Please tell me they're jus friends.
I can't deal with this.
I feel like doing the deed again.. ):
I've confronted him. He's not even denied it, he's jus gone in a strop asking how i want him to act to an accusation like this.. i jus said "well it depends if it's true or not".

I DON'T NEED THIS ): OH MY DAYS. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE SHANE ASWELL


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That is hard.
Maybe he needed someone to talk to, and figured that he couldn't talk to the other guys about it.
But that's what a mom is for! If that was the case, he should have opted to call his mom or sister or something. Not other chicks.

Drink on girl. I know it's bad to say that but I felt that way yesterday also.

<3 Sarah

[canceroustearsStar|0 likes] [|reply]

hey girl, hang on......sorry you feel like this. Its no fun and a miserable place to be. not knowing and all.
my experieince is, if there is suspician, there is usually a reason for it. you check it out. just saying....
good luck with the hangover. I hate those.
good luck with the guy.
dry your tears today, and find comfort.

[empire state|0 likes] [|reply]

Guys don't usually have the best judgement on who to talk to when they're worried/upset about something. At least not in my experience.

Have your drink boo, I say you definitely deserve one. Take one thing at a time, don't add Shane and his man problems to your grieving time - it'll only make both so much worse.

Do you first, and make sure YOU'RE okay.
Then give the kid hell. <3

[JessicaStar|0 likes] [|reply]

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