Legitimacy

This last week has had more than it's fair share of ups and downs I think.  I don't want to get too heavily into it, but Lindsay and I got into a huge fight that, honestly, I didn't need and didn't deserve and I didn't really talk to her for a few days and told her we needed to sit down and have a talk.  Not really about the fact that we argued, but the way it was done, if that makes sense.  If you've ever argued with someone and they decide to pull out all your flaws and put them under a magnifying glass, that's pretty much what it was, and that was after she took out all the problems that weren't my fault on me.  It hit hard and for no good reason.  I told her that if that continued to happen when we argue, we weren't going to last much longer because I wasn't going to take all that crap, especially when I had done nothing to deserve it. 

I understand now why it happened though.  She was freaking out because her mom was literally turning blue and passing out from time to time due to allergies and refusing to go to the doctor and screaming and whatnot, so I get that she was under a lot of stress at the time.  But that doesn't exactly excuse it.  She apologised and she hated herself for a while and she cried when I said that about us not being together much longer if it kept happening.  I know she's sorry about it and I don't think it'll happen again any time soon.  She's angry enough with herself as it is.

Anyway, we got that all wrapped up and we did the usual kiss and make up and things have been fine since then so far.  She came down to Lansing this weekend and hung out with her friend Addie for most of it and I just took her home last night.  Things are going more than well enough for now and I'm content to continue with no immediate changes.

I have a few places that I'm calling consistently about jobs, but they keep saying that they're just looking through the apps right now, so I'm about to leave home and put more apps in, as well as get some food.  I need me some Burger King...with a strawberry shake....*imagines shake*  ...beautiful.....

Anyway, here's the latest playlist.  It's rather short and rather darker than usual, but it's all good music...at least I think so.  Listen in and form your own opinion.  As far as I know these two songs are the only ones I like by Cradle of Filth.  Otherwise, they're not exactly the kind of people I get behind.  Much like Manson.  I like some of his music, but he's not exactly good people.

Castlevania Instrumental - Cradle of Filth

Beauty Through The Eyes Of A Predator - Demon Hunter

Coma White - Marilyn Manson

Nymphetamine - Cradle of Filth

Iron Tusk - Mastodon

Less Than Nothing - Demon Hunter