I spend way too much of my time just thinking about senseless things. Alot of the time, they're things that if I were to say them out loud, they would make absolutely no sense. It's also probably the reason I didn't do too good in school. But you know what? My thoughts have gotten me where I am today, and made me who I am. I figure things out over time by thinking for countless hours. Me thinking has gotten me into alot of trouble, as well as out of it as well. And lately my thoughts have been mostly about endings. How do we know when something is over? When we're tired and don't feel what we used to anymore.
I know two out of the three entries that I have written have been about my ex and I just want to clear up with those who read them that I am indeed over him. How do I know this? Well let me explain and maybe you, yourselves, can figure out for yourself if you are TRULY, WHOLE-HEARTEDLY over the person who had hurt you.
When I used to look at his facebook, I used to get this nauseous feelings whenever I saw that he was happy without me. I used to burst into tears, especially when I had seen that some other girl was making him happy. I used to look at his pictures and my heart used to skip beats. How would I ever know if I was truly over him? And then one day it hit me. Like a ton of bricks.
I was looking through his pictures, and for the first time I felt nothing. I looked through multiple pictures and nothing was felt. No dropping of the stomach or skipped heartbeats. I was free. I was completely over him. And i could truly smile again.
Here's to you ladies. Here is proof that you CAN get over him and you WILL. It will take some time. Realize that you are better than the pain and tears. Your smile is what brought him to you, and let that smile bring someone else to you. I promise you it will happen. Don't think about what you lost. Think about how this can make you a better person. No man is ever worth any girls tears. EVER. especially if those tears have been brought by him multiple times.
I use my words to help myself. Help me, help you. Feeling nothing is what we want to feel and strive for. And don't forget the saying i put at the end of evert entry. That saying came from this experience. Take it to heart. always ALWAYS smile. Someone is going to fall for it harder than he did.
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