So, I try to do the right thing. I hate him, but I still care about him, and want the best for him. Today has been kind of eventful. First, I get an add request on facebook. I accepted, then when I was talking to them, I found out that they were my husband's fiance's cousin. Well, I wasn't sure what to say, but I talked to her. It was fine...
My husband was talking to me on yahoo about this point, that I was talking to the cousin on AIM. I mentioned that I got an add request from her, and he told me his fiance was going to kill me when she found out. I responded with, "Let her."
Well somewhere in the conversation, I mentioned that I had talked to a girl from the past. He went all ballistic on me...wanting to know what she said. I tried to spare his feelings, and I told him this. Well, late tonight, he messaged me. He wanted to know, regardless of how bad it might hurt. So, I told him she refused to ever talk to him again, and told him why she left. I didn't want to hurt him. Well he basically said, fuck the world, and that I would get my divorce, that by morning I wouldn't be tied to him any longer. Worried that I did the wrong thing, I was talking to a friend. Shortly after I get a message on yahoo, from his fiance, going off on me. I tried to be civil, and in the end I had to go invisible so she would leave me alone. She even chased me to facebook. On his account.
I have had enough!! All I have ever asked for was a divorce. He HAS the papers...how hard is it to sign? I am happy now, and in love. I may care about him, but...it's not enough for me to go back.
Using someone's dead child against them should be against the law. I don't know how many times she called me a whore, a barren whore, brought up my daughter, ect. She is with my husband, and they are both with other people as well, and she has the audacity to call ME a whore? And to use my precious daughter against me? If I want to move her grave, I am her mother. I damn well will do so. However, I wasn't planning on it...but let her get a lawyer trying to prevent me. She is no kin to her.
Telling me to leave him alone...well, last I checked I AM married to him, and until he signs and the courts approve it...I will continue to be married to him, however agaisnt my will. I am TRYING to get a divorce...I have even told them they can be nice, or not talk to me at all. If they have nothing important to say, especially her, I've told them to leave me alone. I just want a divorce...is that too much to ask?
I'm so tired...sometimes when it gets as bad as all that...I seriously consider killing both of them...or myself. I'm so close to giving up...all I have left is one more trick up my sleeve...the contested divorce papers, if the court accepts my fee exemption. Maybe I should just give up...leave Chris, and be done with it. Go back home, like a good little girl. |
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