Have you loved lately? | 08/07/2009 |
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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
I've recently lost the most important person in my life outside of my family. Our friendship of 8 years gone due to MY stupidity.
There's plenty of "corny" cliche's out there of how people realize who and what is most important to them. People have found family and friends during the recent recession, two wars, death and so on.
I put my family and friends on the back-burner to pursue women, money, security, lost time. Guess what? The women are no longer there. Money doesn't help me in prison. I am secure all right...just not how I expected. And I've lost five more years!
I realize now more than ever what true love is. True love is not extravagant island vacations, not twelve dozen red roses, not a $5000 engagement ring.
Love is flying 1400 miles three time a year to see you. Love is taking time out to write a card or letter for over 5 straight years. Love is sending your loved one a wedding invitation to still let them know you're thinking about them.
How have you loved recently? Have you don't those "little" things lately? Hurry up before it's too late! You friend or family member may be waiting.
P.S. "The Knowing" SUCKED
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Mike's address is located on the front page of this diary. He would love to receive even a slight post card or encouragement letter during this tough time. Please remember that he's not allowed "pen pals" but can have friends write him so if you do write him please act like you're his friend. Also, if you want to know anything about Mike and his crime you need to write him. This is not my place to tell everyone his business. If he wants to tell you, he will. If not, oh well.
Queenbutterfly helps control this diary.
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