1,2,3,4. Tell me that you love me more.

I only need to lose one more pound this week to be at my target 2.5 pounds a week.

I was thinking last night. It is absolutely beyond me how I used to eat so much. I know I've only been doing this weight loss thing for a little over three weeks, but still... Dayum. No one would guess how much I was eating in a day, caloric wise. It was probably like 2500-3000, I would say, and that probably didn't include the days I had a whole pint of ben&jerry's. (To this day, delicious. LOL) I've really been proud of myself though because I just havent had the cravings like I used to. I try to keep myself as busy as possible so that I dont by walking or by doing homework. Stuff like that. I used to have MAJOR cravings for phish food by B&J's all the time, and now I don't even have them any more. The only time I think about ice cream is when I pass by the store and its like: "I used to get b&j's from there." Having Weight Watchers Fudgecicles helps as well. They're actually pretty good, and taste darn near the original fudgecicles. And then there's the yummy Crystal Light popcicals. They're expensive for someone like me on my budget, but anything's better than a humiliating walk to go get some b&j's. That's right. It was humiliating. I would sit in the car for five minutes, debating on whether I would even go in or not. I would finally give into my urges, rush in, with my head down, and a scowl on my face as if to say: "I swear to God, if I see anyone making an 'oh she really needs that' face I'm gonna tear it off of you." I would buy it and then stow away in my basement and eat it. I really was kind of like a junkie with it. LOL.

It's was kind of chilly this morning. I might have to put on some longer sweats to go walking today. I think I might have to start stepping up my game with this walking. Yesterday I walked the a mile around the half mile track and I wasn't even that winded with it. I think I need to either add another half mile to it, or start jogging or something. I just don't want to push myself with it, as lame as that sounds. It's already like sort of a chore for me to do. I don't really want to make it even more of a chore so that I hate doing it. Ah well. I shall figgure it out when I get there. Maybe I'll up it up tomorrow or next week.

Biggest Loser tonight. I hope they don't have to send anyone home this week. I want them ALL to win. Haha.

3:03 PM Rant
I hate people who play their stupid MTV Kanye inspired rap crap so loud that everyone in the general area can hear it, like we want to hear your stupid music. You know what? Its overplayed. Its music that doesnt even deserve to spend one second of radio time and yet because some kid who can kind of rap gets a record deal (whoopedy do!) everyone thinks that this is the time to make him a multi billionaire before he's 21. You know, if I were people who started hip hop back before all of this "glam rap" started coming out, before you could make a dollar off of it, and I heard the shit they were trying to pass off as music come out, I'd be pissed. I would be so pissed that I would go to my record company, take my contract, and shred it in their faces. The same thing goes with rock these days. These little pretty boys try to make some sort of knock off of brand new and green day and cursive and afi and bright eyes, slap some gel over it and call it music. FUCK THAT. You fuckers don't have half the goddamn talent nor the staying power. I can not wait until I hear the reviews on your crappy sophmore album.

The girl next to me (the music whore) she looks like she does crack or some sort of drug. I'm really suprised she doesnt have meth mouth. Like really really suprised.

Everything about community college that could make it great, all the artists, the writers, the painters, the musicians, we all die when we come here.

But seriously. I think this girl just dropped acid like fifteen minutes before she came in here.

I'm thinking about taking out my industrial because everyone has one now. EVERYONE. Even crack/no meth mouth/acid girl has one. And whats up with everyone having an iPhone? Are they really that great? Or have we just been sucked into the social reforms of society that we just THINK that the iPhone is so great when in reality it lookes like an arcade with a phone. It's something SHINY!.

_Fin.