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Weight: 221
Exercise: NONE But I plan on when I get back from shopping.
Food: 1 Banana, 1 snack bag of doritos baked chips, some fettucini and chicken, and one haneously big piece of my brothers Bailey's Irish Cream birthday cake. (I hate him. lol)
Notes:
So, things have been kind of hectic since the last time I wrote an entry. First, I cut off all my hair. It wasn't for any sort of fashion statement (although the experience was sort of freeing) I had just bleached my hair so much in the back that every time I washed it there would be a big clump right in the middle of it and it was at the nape, so for anyone out there who has had long hair before knows it HURTS brushing it if theres even a sort of slim chance of a knot there. LOL. Secondly, school has been sort of odd lately. It's a lot of stress. I gained back five pounds that i lost, but I've lost three of it again. I think my weakness is that I do really well with a diet until I either loose some weight, or get on my period. Those two always seem to mess me up. Maybe someone can suggest to me how to battle the almighty cravings whenever they hit. its like when im on my period i want to eat the whole fridge. lol.
My goals now have slightly changed. I think I'm going to try to loose five pounds every two weeks. I'll have lost 80 lbs by December, and my goal weight would have been acheived.
I just want to be overall healthier, and not be so tired all the time. I mean that's what I'm mostly sick of. Laaame. And I'm also sick of not being able to go into any store that I want, or worrying if clothes would fit me or not. It would be a dream come true if the only thing I had to worry about in the morning would be what I need to get done throughout the day. Not have to sort out of my clothes what fits me and what doesn't. I'm tired of looking at my belly and tired of not liking the way that I look. I'm just so worried that I'm going to miss out on my twenties because I didn't think i was healthy enough to do stuff. Plus, I want so badly to be a theatre actress, and hollywood or not, they dont hire fat girls. They just don't. As stupid and narrow minded as that is, the only way I would get casted would be in Hairspray. No. I want to play shakespeare. I want to play Juliet, and I want to play in comedies and horrors. I want people to see my ACTING and not my body. Or i want them to look at my body second. go: Man that girl was a fantastic actor and she really looks like shes in shape! You know, you've heard people talking about actors.
I dont really have anything else to say right now, although i feel like i just dropped subject.
whatever. haha.
-Fin.
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