I'm climbing a mountain, and I'll be damned if I don't stop till I reach the top.

The wedding went... well. That's all I'm going to say. LOL. Sorry for those who thought there was going to be a big reveal. My family did what they did best- bitched about it the entire time. Haha.

I don't know what my weight is officially, because I didn't weigh myself this morning. I'm hoping that its good. Haha.

I've officially started to take a positive outlook on this lifestyle change. Yes, its my fault that I got here, but I don't have to keep beating myself in the brain over it. I've learned that my addiction has a lot to do with why I beat myself up about weight at every corner. It's my vice, and it's something I'm going to have to deal with every single day of my life, but I can do it. I have to look forward and know that it will get easier over time. It has to get easier.

I have to start looking for another job too. I'm putting myself at risk for a breakdown every time I go into the store because its packed with cookies and brownies and ICEEs and soda and icing. It's a fat kids dream to work at that job, but that's not going to be me anymore.

I've started watching a show on A&E called Heavy. It's sort of like biggest loser except no one wins anything in the end, and its just two people losing weight, healthy. Plus, its only an hour show, so I can actually sit down and watch it. I like the Biggest Loser show, but two hours is entirely too long for a show. The people on Heavy are definitely inspiring me to be better and try harder. I have no excuse if a 500+ man is exercising.

_fin.