Maybe Friday?

OMG! I have got to get out of this place!! So we have an extra room that we rent out. Right now, it's going to Sherri. So she owed rent this morning. She paid. No biggie. Well we get home and we've been there for about a half hour when she notices that her card isn't anywhere to be found. Now it wasn't me because I didn't get out of the car or hold any of her stuff not that I need her card anyway. So Kevin made it a rule after his dad went into the hospital that no one was allowed on the property. He made it very clear and I've stuck to it. Sherri hasn't. Not that it's a big deal, people come and go as they please. They knock and ask for whoever and if they aren't there then they leave. OK. I'm good with that. Well our neighbor Tammy who I'm pretty sure has a meth problem but IDK..came over today. NO ONE IS ALLOWED ON THE PROPERTY. I told Kevin and he said I could call the police because it's trespassing. I was like OK. So I leave for work and we're pretty busy and the phone rings. I'm closest so I answer. It's Sherri. She told Tammy that she paid me rent and then Tammy said that she was going to come up to my work and take $150 of it. I was like great. Now I don't mind losing my job if it means keeping my rent money. It's Tammy's fault that she doesn't have her money, not mine. It's your job as a landlord to collect what's yours. Sherri told Tammy that I was going to be home at 2 which is usually right but I stayed out because I needed to pay some bills and get some stuff. So I wasn't home until 4. Well Tammy comes over. Unannounced and just walks into the house through the back door and sits down and starts telling me that I owe her money because Sherri didn't pay her. I'm like you have got to be kidding me. I don't owe you shit bitch! And the she goes off about how Kevin promised her that she would get her money and her power is being shut off tomorrow at 8 am blah blah blah. I happen to know that if they were going to shut it off, it would have been done by now. I just went through that. And as for what Kevin promised you, you are more than welcome to take it up with him but I am not him so get the fuck off my ass. That's what I wanted to say, not what I did. So I call Kevin and let them talk. She finally left.

Tammy's been to jail several times so I know she wouldn't hesitate to do something drastic. So I went around and took pictures of everything in the house so if she wants to break in, I have proof of what we have. I don't have a problem turning her ass in and in NC they have a law where you can find out who turned you in and she come after my ass. I'm not in the mood to be fucked with. I'm pregnant! My whole family will have her ass if something happens to me or the baby. I have way more connections than she knows and I am willing to use them. And of course Kevin has some too so I'm covered.

Kevin said he was going to buy me a gun. I was like sweet!! I've always wanted my own gun. And being pregnant, if I kill someone he says that I can claim that I feared for my life which would be obvious if I even shot near someone. Growing up we had one gun that was framed, a double barrel, but mom never let dad keep any ammo in the house so it was pointless. Just there for show I guess.

Kevin said he was probably also coming home Friday instead of Saturday. I couldn't be happier. I'm so mad at this situation and I want to move to which Kevin said we could. I want an apartment where you don't care to know your neighbors and they aren't showing up unannounced or looking for drugs and people you know aren't getting jumped and dragged down the road. I want a safe place for peanut to grow up and not have to deal with any of this....just like me! As much as I hated being sheltered I'm glad I was. I never want my kid to see any of this or have any part in it. It just makes me want to cry. I'm getting so stressed out about everyone else's problems because they make them my problems and I just want to beat someone over the head with a bat! Everyone here thinks I'm this sweet, innocent little girl that can do no wrong. I freaking broke Kevin's nose and didn't think twice about it! I miss people fearing me like they did in high school because I didn't say anything so they never knew me which I find now was a great advantage.

OK I'm done. I'm not going back to do typos or whatever because I'm too mad and upset to give a damn right now. Sorry for the language.