I know I haven't been on for awhile. First we had a great Christmas, the girls got what they wanted. Austin had a great time spending Christmas Eve with us, it was really nice. We all stayed home on Christmas day and just let the girls play with their toys. I made a nice breakfast for us all, I made a turkey the day before Christmas for we had turkey for sandwiches. We just had a really nice relaxing day!
Matt's parents came over on Christmas day, and it was a very nice visit. They stayed for a couple of hours. They did bring a gift over for Journey from Matt, decided it wasn't worth having words over it. It just isn't worth my time to get all upset over things with Matt. There has to come a time that you grow up and just let things go, if not, then you are part of the problem. And I refuse to be part of the problem. It just makes life easier for us all to not get all upset over little things.
Journey had a great birthday party, Matt's parents and Grandma came, we all had a lot of fun. We had all kinds of kids to her party. It was so much fun to see the kids all have a good time playing and having lots of fun.
Well, my friend set me up on a blind date for New Years. He was a very nice guy, we have gone out a couple of times since then. His name is Doug, he has a 6 year old daughter. I just meet her the other day. I'm just not ready for any kind of commitment, he's a nice guy and all, but he's really my first date since Austin and I called it quits. I don't want to fall for the first guy that comes my way. I told him I didn't mind being friends, but I can't give him anymore than that. I feel like I need to spread my wings and really make sure about the guy I bring into my life and my girls life. He's only meet my girls once and that was one night when he picked me up for a date. I don't want to bring my girls into any mans life right now. Since I'm not ready for that kind of relationship in my life right now.
He's a bit older, he's 31 and he knows what he wants out of life, which that is good. But, I don't know if I'm what he needs right now. I told him we will just be good friends, I told him not to get set just on me. Because I wanted to date other men, not ready to be with just one guy. And no, he's not a friend with benefits, I don't want that kind of friend. I'm totally not ready for any kind of man in my life for benefits. I want to be a good role model for my daughters, and to do that I can't be sleeping with men that come into my life. I will not have another baby and not married, right now I don't know if I want anymore kids.
But, I'm enjoying my life and my new friend. Can't have to may friends! |
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