the diary of emily~rose hey  I have no idea how i got started on it to be honest I was feeling really down and needed to Do something to lift my spirits if that makes any Sense & my partner suggested that i should try it so i tried to put thing together its a mix of ( real life events in my own Child hood Some twists of a book i Recently Read & a song by martina mcbride concrete angel) her name came from a name that me and john wanted to call our own Child but is Ella ~ rose not Emily ~ rose + i am dyslexic so its kind of hard sometimes to put stuff together that is as far as i have gotten Enjoy xx
Charlie and Me
The diary Of Emily rose
Hello my name is Emily~rose I am in 1st grade of school and live in Willow West in the willow cottage, down the creek my surroundings are beautiful we have a pond just over the hill and lots of space to play in the summer among the field’s of green. That’s how I like to spend most days but I like spending most the time with Charlie my best friend , Charlie is the Same age as me And has been in my Life for the last year I meet him l one day when I was feeling very sad and alone you see he’d come out of nowhere and cheered me up to kind of think of it he is the only real friend I have , I have a older brother Called bobby Who is 10 and a younger Sister Called Ellie Who Is 6 months old .
My mummy Went with the Angels when She had Ellie , the day Ellie Was born I can Remember the day as if It was only yesterday mummy and daddy was So existed as they had wanted me and bobby to have a baby sibling for a While and found that their nest was always empty for a few years after my 2nd birthday I am know 4 years old and was looking very happy to Ellie being born it was two weeks before my 5th birthday not that I really wanted to share my birthday with anyone ..Mummy kissed me the night before Ellie was born and told me I’d still be her little girl and gave me kisses good night and left me in my nice warm bed to sleep early before dawn I could hear Load Cry’s from mummy’s Room I was very scared it was not a normal Cry if you can call crying normal it was Like a screaming Sort of cry I got out of my Warm bed grabbed my Fluffy White Rabbit Fi Fi and passed my bedroom door trying to Shut it quietly and was walking down the Creaky hallway I held Fifi In my left hand dragging her by the one arm as her feet Dragged along the Floor Mummy’s and daddy’s room was on the other side of the hallway it Was So dark nothing but the moonlight shadow Creeping trough the Crack of their Door I slowly walked towards the door hoping nobody would Hear me I could see through the Door Mummy crying and holding something very Small much Smaller than FiFi..Mummy looked very sad and kept saying no.noo please no...And Daddy was pacing the floor in the bedroom up and down up and down on his cell phone …I can’t get in touch with them he yelled God dam it ! Sat on the end of the bed shaking his head and Wiping away the tears from his eyes and holding his head in his hands …mummy what’s happened I Said Quietly by the door Emily get back to bed !! Dad shouted Go now!! I tell you god Dam it get to bed before I smack you …Its ok baby go back to bed mummy says in her soft voice and a trickle Runs down my face and I drag FiFi behind me back to my Room and Crawled back into bed with Fi-Fi I noticed that her left foot was Wet and Coved in red..stuff …but I was So scared I did not understand Why mummy and daddy was Sad and why daddy sent me away like that normally Daddy is a very kind man but tonight his tone was very different With me …I could hear the Rain pouring down on the bedroom Window and it slowly soothed me to Sleep I awoke To my dad Crying his Eye’s out beside me on the bedside , and bobby Sitting by the door of my Room Emily my Darling My darling daughter I need to tell you Something My Dear Sit tall and be very brave for What I am about to tell you..well you know last night when I sent you back to your Room Mummy and I delivered your baby Sister Ellie She IS very Small and was struggling for air but She Is getting better She’s at Willow creek hospital She will be With us very Soon Were is mummy daddy is mummy Okay Daddy is mummy coming home too ? Emily you know When your puppy Went to meet all the other puppy’s that could Fly and Was very happy in there knew home Well Mummy has gone there to look after molly She Was very Weak after ellie Was born And She Was So beautiful that god needed to have her as one of his angel’s I am very Sorry Emily I am so Sorry ( he began sobbing into my bed covers with his hands crossed over weeping softly but enough to make him struggle for air) I just lay nest to him daddy please Don’t cry please I begged as I cooped his head in my lap trying to still take the news in I did not unsterstand it I just gathered my feelings up and locked them out my head for then …I knew were ever mummy went she was not coming back like Molly never did Even though I wished For What seemed a million years that she Did . For that first Week Daddy was very Angry and Sad I remember her Funeral She was dressed in a white lace dress with White Dolly shoe’s her skin Was fair and peachy toned but she felt cold to the touch She had a Ring on her left Finger it was So beautiful she had a White casket and one beautiful red rose in her right hand With a photo of me bobby and ellie under it Written on the back of the photo was a note to my mother My dear beautiful Wife Kate Rest in the arms of the angels my love Me and the children love you lots Forever and always peter Gregory your forever loving husband and children xxxx
I remember walking into the Church behind the white casket that carried mummy the bells Ringing the people Singing the sweet arms of the Angel fly away ,with the piano echoing around the Room with soft whimpers from relatives and Friends booby sobbing his heart out and Just overwhelmed by it all not too Sure to act brave or to Cry and let all of the anger pour out I placed my hand on his Shoulder and He held my hand For a few seconds then Smiled and whipped a tear away and carried on walking behind the casket , It came to Daddy’s speech after the music had stopped playing , his hands Shaking as he held the scrap of paper in his hands my beautiful, wonderful wife Kate What an honor it has Been To be your husband the Day I married you Was the best day of my life I built our home but you made it our home , with all your Crafts and Cranny’s you could make you was always making something weather it was cooking a meal to a nice cake or making new toys or clothes’ for the Children you was a wonderful mother And doted on everything those kids Wanted you would Save up for months to buy them knew shoe’s or you would spend ages reading them story’s I Shall always tell them what a wonderful mother you where to them Always …
I walked up by daddy’s side and held his hand and Softly took the microphone out of his hand and walked over to the White casket where mummy lay and the Room Fell silent Mommy I am not sure on why god took you away I know that daddy Says it’s because you’re the most beautiful mummy in the world and that the angel’s needed your help , but mummy I need you you’re my beautiful Mummy and I want you with Me daddy and booby and Ellie Mummy bobby misses you too he will not admit that he dose nor will he ever cry but he Really dose mummy ,mummy do you think if We are good Kids and Will eat all our veggie’s and do all our homework that god would give you back to us ?? Mummy please come back to us it’s my 5th birthday tomorrow Mummy and I need you to be there For me Mummy like you always Are ..Do you Remember my last birthday mummy do you Remember you made me my very own Cake with Fi-Fi on it and I was ever so happy Mummy.Mummy please Come home Please mummy I need you …We all need you We all love you mummy oh mummy Why you Why my mummy as tears Rolled down my Eye’s My Dad Scooped me up into his Arm’s like he did when I was younger and sat in the front Seats of the alter and held me ever So tightly Oh Mummy I softly cried to myself trough the Rest of the service … as we lay her to Rest in the Will Creek grave yard My tummy turned Like a stone of ice the Wind Was howling on the Cold winter night And As everybody Went to leave for the reception I watched the Last autumn Leaf on the big oak tree Fall to the ground and As I looked back before I left my mummy’s Side it Started to Snow ..Little snowflakes Appeared all around me And as though it was So beautiful I could not believe My Eye’s my Dad went to talk to my uncle Burt Who Flew In From jersey , I stood and watched the Snow Fall for a While and a boy appeared from behind the oak tree Stopping me in my tracks of watching the Snow Fall and trip over the stump of the oak tree making me fall on to my Rear Cheeks What Are you Doing Creeping up on me like that I spat at the boy who stood before me , he held out his right hand with a tan/wooly glove on and pulled me to my Feet I am very Sorry if I scared you miss , he Said Shyly … Who are you I gazed with curiosity My name Is Charlie Miss, Charlie hickingbottom, And Who may you be miss ? my name is Emily~rose Gregory I am the daughter of peter Gregory and Kate Gregory, What kind of name is hickingbottom I replied with rubbing my nose from the snowflake’s falling on us faster , a funny one miss Emily Well I best get on home my mother will be expecting me , Emily’s face Frown’s for a second and she looks at the ground Did I say something wrong miss Emily ..And I started to run as fast as my feet could carry me into the woodland behind me …miss Emily Wait he shouted as I Ran into the distance in front of me Emily Slow Down …What’s Wrong miss Emily? He crouched down next to me as much as he could my mother is Dead Charlie My mother is dead!! I welled back at him, Oh miss Emily I am very Sorry but you must head back to your Family it’s not safe in here miss ..By this time I could hear the leave’s crunching under someone’s Feet Big and heavy footed and Someone grabbed me from behind the Tree...What the Hell are you Doing Emily~rose My Dad Yelled How Dare you Run off Emily how Dare you ! Never run off like that again do you hear me … but daddy the boy the boy what boy he spat? there is no boy Here … Emily I am sick of your nonsense Don’t Ever do this Again or I’ll give you What For you Scared me half to death Emily …I’m sorry Daddy I really am Daddy not a other Word Emily ! …when we get home you go straight to bed you hear me? Do you hear me Emily?? yes Daddy he grabbed My hand tightly and pulled me away towards the church Were the family hearse Was Awaiting for me to take me to the Reception ..I looked back for Charlie As we Was walking away he Waved from behind a Tree and run into cloud of the Snow …I sat in the hearse and my tears were burning my Face from the Redness of my Cheeks and eyes …That night We had tomato Soup out of the tin Not Quite the same as When mummy Cooked it From scratch … I miss mummy’s cooking I said Softly that is enough of that Emily Dad spat your mum is no longer here with us the faster you get your head round that the better it will be for all of us your baby sister is going to be here in a few days and I will need yours and bobby’s help to bring her up So enough With Mummy talk your old enough to look after yourself you turn 5 tomorrow so Stop the crying as big girl’s don’t cry there not sissy’s !!! He spat now go to bed.you need to be up early tomorrow …I drank the rest of my milk up that tasted off and put my plates on the counter to wash.
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that is as far as i have gotten what you think ?x |
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