Toothache

08/16/2009

I need to call about my benefits I keep putting it off like some bodys going to do it for me!

I need to get my teeth fixed past 4 days its started to hurt no more what I eat even bread kills me when I close my back right teeth blah.

Other then that pain there's is blister that is trying to pop up on my lip I just started feeling it like an hour ago I put blistex on it right away so it should be alright not even sure its a bluster its just a bump but better safe then sorry.

Haven't talked to Ian on the phone since thrusday he said yesterday he fell asleep at 7 I was at the fair anyways.

I'm lonely nobody is talking to me *cries* I'm so lonely I wouldn't even mind if my niece started talking to me on facebook how sad is that?!?

I killed my bank account last night well more so I let Anthony kill my bank account I had 109 in there that was $70 for capitalone and $35 for my over draft Capitalone had already accepted my payment but never took the money off how annoying. anyways Anthony was whining about his phone so I told him to try my card cause I really didn't think it would work thought the 70 was already like counted for but i guess not it took his 106 right away so now I owe 70+35+35=140 such is life really.

Ian gets his big money this week lets see him do what he has said he would but like he said hes alot of talk.

I need a raise!

I scrubbed my kitchen floor it was gross brand new floor (like 2 months) and it was already bad like not "OMG! EWW" gross up like under the stove and table and by the outside door.

I bought some film stuff from target to prevent pregnancy been really dumb the last month thankfully nothings come outta it (may be speaking to soon but shh) We don't want a baby I don't want kids for at least 5 years he doesn't want anymore at all though he says sometimes he does want just one more in a few years but then sometimes he says if he knew how much kids cost a few years ago he wouldn't have had a 2nd kid. His kids are his life he has them all the time not sure when Xavier's mother sees him really ha hes been with Ian all week.

Last message Anthony sent me last night was "That's why your the best".

I think i'm coming to a point in my life of change I don't feel the same way about my life anymore I don't feel the ened to tell every detail about my life I mean yea on this site I tell what I do during the day but I use to tell everything I did at night i dont do that anymore I have not typed one entry about what is me and Ians friendship right now.