I Think I'm Somewhat Bipolar... Hey there bloopers! I know I haven't updated this in a few days but I have been busy with homecoming and what not. I'll have to write about that some other day when I have time. After this I'm probably going to call Chris and then go to bed.
I think I'm bipolar sometimes with certain things. Like at the homecoming dance Chris and I were perfect. Everything went great, not so much when we got back to his house. Like I said though, I'm going to write about homecoming some other day.
Anyways, I want to start with today. I have to babysit everyday after school and I don't get off until around 6:30ish. That leaves me with no time to spend with Chris. I mean, I have to work and he gets a bunch of AP homework. When I got off of work today Chris, Katie, Josh, and I all made plans to watch Trick-or-Treat at Chris and Josh's house. While we were watching the movie Chris would hold my hand and lay his head on my shoulder and I loved that. Then he would just look at me and I would get butterflies.
When we were done with the movie Katie had to go home and Josh made cookies. I got kind of mad/upset though because everytime I went to hug Chris he would just walk away and ignore it. Then while I waiting for my dad to come get me Chris and Josh were talking. When I wasn't talking Josh asked me what was wrong. I told him nothing but he obviously knows something was wrong, so did Chris.
My dad pulled up to the house and I was going to leave. Josh asked Chris what he did to me to make me sad. Then Josh said, "You teased her didn't you!". When he says tease he doesn't mean in the call me names way. Do you get what I'm saying? Anyways, Chris was like "I didn't do anything. I think that might be what's wrong." When I was going to walk out the door Chris stepped in front of me and went to give me a hug and he kissed me. I think it was meant to be on the lips but when I went in for a hug I turned my head and he ended up kissing my cheek. I didn't think he was going to do that or I would have kissed him.
Anyhow, Chris was right. I was upset that he didn't pay much attention to me...again.
Then when I got home and got on myspace and Chris has new videos on his myspace. The videos are of him and one of my best friends, Katie. They were of them goofing off and singing to songs. I'm not going to lie, I was jealous. I hate that she got to hangout with him all day and I can never do that.
What do I do. I hate that I feel like this but I can't really help it. I'm just acting stupid right?
P.S.
I know nothing is going on with Chris and Katie because Chris is not that kind of guy and Katie would never do that. |
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