Boy Problems [[1]]

01/18/2014

R:
He's my current boyfriend and he's absolutely amazing. Honestly, he's made me happier in the past two weeks than anybody has in their entire lives. He's not perfect, but his imperfections are perfect to me and that's all that matters. Seriously. He's really sweet, funny, gorgeous, tall and just... M M P P P F F. I honestly think I'm falling in love with him, but I'm scared to because of my past relationships. I don't want to mess this up and I don't want him to hear something about me and flee right after I've fallen completely. I'd be crushed and, honestly, it wouldn't surprise me. Once I let someone in, they end up breaking me down anyways. It's so hard for me to trust anyone, but I want him to have easy access into my life and mind. I can't lose him. He's everything and he makes me forget about everything and that's honestly the best thing anybody could provide for me.

K:
He's my ex and first, real true love. Things started out great, but everything literally came crashing down over the summer of 2013 and now we don't even talk. At all. Like, he's completely fled from my life after a year of nothing but talking constantly. Yes, I miss him and, yeah, I obviously still have feelings for him, but I'm kind of happy I don't have to be put down by him anymore. Still, the questions remain. What if I hadn't broken up with him the second time? What if he and I were still together? What's he doing? How is he? Has he found a new hobby? Or someone else to call his? Has he finally had his first kiss? Is he alright? What about his family and friends? How are they? Even the cousins that hate me? I'm so heart-broken because of him.

A:
He's always been considered a best friend to me, but now, with recent discoveries, I'm finding it hard to believe he was really my friend to begin with. We went out twice my Freshman year, I believe. I broke up with him both times. Once when he constantly compared his ex and I, and continuously talked about her. The second time, I broke up with him because he never seemed to want to open up to me AND he lied, claiming that his ex was pregnant with his kid. Seriously? Who does that? We were working on things, hoping to get back together a third time and were each others dates to our semi-formal at school. I met one of his friends Z and Z told me, once he got a moment alone with me, that A was only there with me out of pity and didn't really care at all for me. Like, it was all fake? And I believed him because, why would he like me? I'm so... U G H. So I called it off, ruining both our nights. A week later, I started dating Z. Big mistake. Added to the ruining of his night, I start going out with his friend, thus ruining our friendship. The past two years have been rocky and just when I thought things were looking up in the friendship part of our relationship, I realize I love him too. But he hates me and I guess I get that. Like I said... I'm so U G H.