♥ Mind Consuming

05/05/2010

I suppose nothing really has changed. The high lite of my life at the moment is still waiting to go in and have the biopsy done or whatever it is they plan on doing. I feel like I am being over dramatic though as much as I think about it , it feels like it consumes me. Most the thoughts though lie in the area of if we are going to be able to have any more kids or if we are going to have to rush them so they can take all my stuff out. I was reading some other peoples stories online and so of course if it is cancerous likely they will just do the hysterectomy. If it is precancerous it seems rather common for them to tell you that you might want to get your child baring over so they can take it out when you are done anyways.

Those thoughts led on to the next crazy one. If it were to be like that I asked Josh if he was serious about multiples. Since we thought Claire was triplets at first and then found out she wasn't he keeps talking about how much hard work it would have been but how much fun at the same time. Says he would have at least liked twins. So would it be too crazy if they want us to finish our having kids for me to ask for Clomid to increase chances of multiples and hit it all at once. Be done. Then they can take my stuff out and as hard as I know it would be Claire being so young and then multiples I can't help but think of how rewarding it would be. I am sure also that the sooner they were to do a hysterectomy the better as well you know? I dunno. There is alot to think about. My mind has been running with the different possibilities. For all I know I could be just fine but sometimes you can't help but let your mind wander.

Here are a few pictures of Claire. They are in no particular order I don't think just random. One with her headband, her strawberry outfit as well as another, the ones on the purple are from last night chillin with me watching American Idol. Just thought I would post a few. She has gotten soooo big! I will post a better entry eventually =)

My Favorite I think

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