I'm pretty sure I know folks who stood in line for second helpings of 'special kind of stupid'.

09/07/2010

Sorry my last entry was kinda trippy. I really need to start sleeping when I'm tired instead of dragging it out and becoming stupid. I've been really busy this morning. Austin got sick at school and they sent him home, though he's been fine since he got home. Kinda find it funny he threw up on his teacher. I know that's awful of me, but she has her moments you know. He's got acid reflux really bad and it makes me throw up sometimes but they still have to send him home even though he's not really sick. I did the dishes that have been sitting there forever, have the laundry going and I'm getting ready to put the clothes away that got washed during the week but never quite made it to the closet. Austin is watching the ant and the aardvark on netflix through our wii.

Now my reason for being mad, cause yes I'm mad. And I'm sure it was awful for me to do it but I did. I'll explain. Cliff's been wanting to get back together. Even after everything that happened with the land lady and what not I actually was considering it. He has been here the last few days even though he's not supposed to be because I missed him. Well when I got home from work the other day he didn't realize I was home and I surprised him talking to some girl on yahoo. I saw where he had called her babygirl and said that he loved her. Well I asked who she was, and he made up some story about how she's his cousin's friend or something stupid like that. I didn't buy it, but I didn't want to fight, it had been a long day. So last night he went to his brothers so he could help him on his truck today. Three different times the house phone rang, first 2 times it was the same number last time it was blocked and all three times they hung up on me. I don't use the house phone you know so I finally called the number back and got some chick's voicemail. I didn't leave a message, 2 seconds later they call back and when I picked up she hung up. Do I seem stupid? Well so I was like fuck this shyt and I logged into his yahoo account. Fuck it I don't care what kinda bitch it makes me, I'm not playing games with him. He's been talking to this girl for like 2 months going on about loving her and she's so beautiful and I'm such a bitch. So I called him up at his brothers this morning and blasted him. Told him I wasn't playing games with him, and of course all he's got to say is I can't believe you went through my stuff. Fuck the fact that he LIED to me or that he's been saying he didn't want anyone but me and then going to this other girl and saying this shit. Now the kicker is she lives like 15 minutes from his brothers. This isn't one of those times where the girl lives in France or even just in California. She's right down the road!! So needless to say I've thrown myself into housework, school work and dealing with Austin because I can't deal with this right now. I'm sure later I might break down but right now I'm such a mess inside that I can't even wrap my mind around all this bullshit. OMFG!! I hate men. They just don't give a damn. Grrrrrrrrrrr