Its annoying as hell because I just typed this all out. I really did, nice long entry about my boring ass day and boom I hit something and it was fucking gone. Talk about wanting to hit someone with something really hard.
I've learned today that just because people say they want your advice doesn't mean they really want your honest advice, they just want you to tell them what they want to hear. But what I learned from Michael is that its pointless to sugarcoat things. The problem with that though is sometimes his mouth gets him in trouble. And all these rules apply to everyone but him. This morning was fucking pointless. I didn't want to argue with him, I was in a really good mood, I just wanted to talk to him but at the same time I usually have to pussy foot around him. Anyway, I have this problem when its something I see as being important, I have a very hard time making the words in my head make sense when written down. Its something that has always happened to me. And the more he acted like a prick the worse it got, the harder it was for me to get out what I wanted to say. So by the time I got out what I wanted to say it seemed like I had a total attitude and by this point I was so mad I was crying. And he just stops talking to me. Never have these important conversations via IM because when he starts on a tangent which he does after every weekend when we've seen each other there is no talking to him. He's just got to work through it. So whether or not he loves me doesn't matter, its more like does he care about me at all. So he pretty much has ignored me except to say yes he's picking me up from school tomorrow. I sent him a message saying Cracker Barrel is hiring and that Kmart is hiring since he's still looking for work. I refuse to get worked up anymore, I've been worked up enough today. So after fighting with him when I just wanted him to tell me why he keeps going from being the sweetest guy in history to being a complete dick. I don't understand why one minute we're talking about things we can do over the summer, fairs we can go to and take Austin, then the next day he's treating me like I'm an idiot. So anyway, after I got off the computer from talking to him, or being ignored by him...which is more appropriate I'm not sure since we didn't really talk...but anywayzzzz so I got off the computer, ditching those stupid ass tears of anger I was crying and hopped into the shower to feel better. Then Austin and I did some yoga which is great because Austin is a wonder at trying to do what I'm doing. lol. Then we played on the floor for a while, watched a movie and just had a great time. I finally put him down for a nap cause he was horribly fussy and I sat down at the computer to work on college stuff. I had to make sure I had all my financial aid ready for the summer semester and look to see what classes I wanted to take. I'm planning on taking Bus Law I, Intro to Computer Applications and College success skills which amounts to 7 credits. I was hoping to make the Dean's list this year but its not looking like I'm going to make that. I've finally caught up in that software class I'm taking. It was a pain since we didn't get our book until 3 weeks into classes. So I did all the paperwork I needed for that, then I checked my email and sat down to work on some more homework since there is always a never ending supply of it. Austin slept for about 2 hours, now he's up watching Johnny Test and driving his cars all over the floor. I'm getting ready to start working on more work and what not. It has been a nice day outside but he's already on medicine and I'm waiting until we get rid of the ear infection and sinus infection before I have him running around outside again. I know the daycare will let him tomorrow but at least I know he's been feeling better the last few days. Its about time, poor kid. So yeah not much has happened. Nothing more then the usual anyway.
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