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Silent.Beauty's Diary
by Silent.Beauty

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Cookie crumbs falling (pics)

01/31/2011

Yummmmm! I feel like I am a kid again - I am eating a cookie for breakfast haha. Okay so besides that here is what has been happening.

School

Spanish: The term started last week and so far I don't know how I feel about the Spanish class. The teacher kind of pisses me off. Okay she totally pisses me off. I understand like not speaking English maybe later in the term and def. not speaking it in the upper division classes, but to not speak it in a beginners class. Hmmm I dunno bout that. I mean for example she hands us a sheet of music, plays the song and tells us to sing. If we dont sing then we get pulled up infront of the entire class to sing alone. Here is the kicker - she never told us what the song says in English. So here I am horribly pronouncin words because she never even went over how to say anything on the sheet of music annnnnd I have no freaking idea what I am saying whatsoever. I made my fash cards - hopefully they help. I went out and bought headphones/voice chat thing so I can do my online homework. I hope that helps. My coworker speaks spanish so she is supposed to help me out too.

Chemistry: Well turns out I don't need this class at all and when I take my Forensic Chemistry the only diff. is that we will do things in lab that aren't the same, but the information we learn is. I can't withdraw from the class and I can't change the class cause then i'd have to change Spanish too and then im not even guaranteed to get into the other classes. So, I will just suck it up and do it. Plus, I have a pre-determined lab partner already. A friend of mine who I met in my Humanities class last term wanted to take Chemistry too, so here we are lol. So far its boring, going over exponents and scientific notation. The one thing I am having a hard time with is conversion with units, I don't know what units convert into what off the top of my head - so I need to work on that STAT. lol. Other then that, this will prob be a really fun class. I hope.

Admin. of Justice: Okay nothing to report here. I took this class during the summer term in 2010 and dropped it with only 2 weeks left beacuse I thought I was moving back home. Turns out I didn't and now I have to re-do the class. lol. I purposely picked the same teacher cause I kept all the previous information. Notes, quizes, exams. I win. haha. Right now he is having problems with people not reading directions for the online class and people not reciveing e-mails because they never updated their WebCT account providing they new/updated email account that they use. Idiots.


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The Dating Front

Okay so things have been going pretty good with Kyle. We hung out last Fri (1/21) - it was funny. We watched movies at my place and just chilled. It was nice, but at the end of the movie I was like wow that was a waste of my time. He as like oh, well thanks! I didn't even think about how that sounded haha. I apologized even tho I know he wasn't really being serious haha. He stayed the night and in the morning it was impossible trying to wake him up. I thought about just letting him stay there, but I decided against it. One step at a time, right? I tried to see him last Sunday (1/23) for lunch, but he was already eating and then going to watch football and I was running late to a random invite for a game of volleyball. I didn't have time to see him at all this week, but I did invite him over for a movie I think on Wed, but he said no. Thank gosh. I was so tired and I just was being polite. lol. So this weekend we hung out Saturday. He came to my friends going away party - it was nice. He orderd us some beer and burgers. It was so funny cause he got this lite beer, he is obsessed with working out and isn't much into IPA's, but I am. So the convo goes a little like this:
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Bartender: So, can I get you two some drinks?

Kyle: Yes, I will have the blah blah (insert some lite beer name there), thanks man.

Me: I will have the Iorn First IPA please!

Kyle: Wow, way to make me look like the man there.
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We laughed all laughed about it, including the bartender It was good times for sure. So we go join my the party, IE a bunch of people I don't know except for like 4 out of 30'something. He was still affectionate, just not uber affectionate like he is when its just him and I. So that was nice - always good to see how a guy acts around your friends. I introduced him as my friend, since we still haven't really talked about exclusitivity and I don't know if I am ready to have that convo. I'd probably get scared off and run away again, as much as I am trying not to. *sigh* So overall the night was really nice, he didn't complain about just hanging out there for a few hours. Sometimes people hate going to events like that if they don't know anyone - he was very nice about it. It was so funny, so I had posted about him being in a severe car accident in 2009 and how he was told he wouldn't walk again. Anywys, he was talkin about how he got into a motorcyle accident when he was 19 and broke his leg. So I was like awww you just all banged up, I will buy you one huuuuuge bandaid for Valentines Day. hahah. He was like oh boy I feel special now. It was funny

Afterwards we left and we back to his house - cause I was the one driving, apparently he hasn't updated his tags or registration for his car. Lazy bum lol. I tried to tell him how much trouble I got in for doing that exact same thing, but he didn't listen. Then the next day he got pulled over. hahah ... sucks to be him. Anyways so I took him back to his place he was so funny, car dancing and telling me about this old friend and him how they would go clubbin and try to pick up girls, but every time one of them wouldn't like the other girl so they would keep lookin around and they never found any they both liked hahaha. Dork. He talked about his dad a little, his dad sounds a lot like how mine was. Kyle is lucky to still have his dad around. Very lucky.

So we get back to his place and start watching The Devils Rejects from the middle, he almost instantly passes out. lol I can't sleep between him snoring and the tv going - so I just decide to leave. I try to wake him up and I am like hey babe I am going to go home, he goes, "Huh? where are you going? Stay." He is still half asleep obviously. I wait a few moments cause I get into the movie again haha then I try to tell him one last time I am leaving, usually get walks me out to the car and stuff. So, I wake him again and tell him the same thing. He says, "Nooooo." then grabs my arm and pulls it near him. hahahah. I leave. The next day I text him and said hey I tried to wake you to tell you I was leaving but you were out for the count. He said I don't even remember falling asleep. I asked if he remembered me tryin to wake him up, he said no. I told him he was funny. lol. Good times.

So overall, things are nice. I can feel that itch to find a reason to leave ... again. Iam fighting it tho. It's not fair of me to keep pulling away from him and then going back. It's also not fair to him for me to place my previous judgments and experiences of men on him, because he isn't my past and I need to constantly remind myself of that. This weekend for some reason put me at more of an ease with him. I think because he actually did come around my friends, and previously most of the guys I dated wouldn't do that. I dunno, but the point is I am feeling a little better every day about it. It will just take me time to re-wire my retarded dating brain lol.


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Everything Else

Okay so Friday I went to a Drag Queen Comedy Show. It was hilarious - I've never been to one. Here are some pics to explain the night.



Oh yes ... just like that. hahaha.


He didn't even know he/she had their hand there. lmao.


Shots, shots, shots. haha.


Brandon who is leaving for two years! *sad face* Ps. I call him Mc'Lovin cause I think he looks like that guy from Superbad. lol


Off note, but I want to say damn my calves/legs looks AWESOME in this pic hahaha.

So that was the night. It was so much fun for sure!! haha. Brandon the guy on the right side of the Drag Queen is going to Guam for two years. He is in the military and that's where he is being shipped. So the guy on the left side of the Drag Queen, Alex, bought Brandon a lapdance. XD hahahahah. Yeah. Good stuff. The Asian girl next to Brandon, Eve. She got her car plastic wrapped by Alex and Brandon's friends while we were inside having a great time. hahah.

I don't have too many pics from Saturday night, but here are some of Brandon's going away party. He was so drunk this night lol. Good for him He is going to be so missed by everyone. Thanks to him I have made a few new, hopefully good friends. I guess we will see


That's me and Kyle on the right side of the pic. He is in the white jacket and I am looking down. Talking to a dog. It was a dog friendly resturant. So weird. Health concern much? hmmm... I mean don't get me wrong. I love my dog, but yeah not at an event like this.


Me, Brandon, and his pig.




Sunday I didn't do anything except work on homework and relax. Just nice long day indoors. It was raining outside so I wasn't too sad about it. I decided not to go to soccer cause I wanted to work on homework and save gas money. I'm kinda sad about that, but oh well. Life goes on.

Overall - kick ass weekend. Everything was fun and just good times all around and lots of smiles.

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thanks and so true. I understand. It's just so hard. He's my favorite uncle. And I have like a billion others. My mom has 5 brothers and 4 sisters. so yeah... And then the whole alex thing.. its just a lot for me right now

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Thanks for trying to left my sprits.

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