Round three -- My schedule has changed once again from part time to full time (casual still) .I am now working with a new student, who is new to the school & can be very violent. This student will leave class & wonder the halls. Every now & then the student will leave the building. Since he can be very violent, all i can do is follow him around. Encouraging him to return to class & giving him options. Sometimes if he continues to wonder the halls for a long period of time or when he leaves the building i have to involve the principal. Most of the time it makes me feel like am inadequate. That am not capable of doing my job so I have to pawn it off or i have to follow someone around like a lost puppy dog. However, like one of the para said to me i can't blame myself. Unlike the othe students where i feel confident & save by taking their hand & leading them back to class i can't with this boy due to his violent behaviour. Unlike the other students where i feel confident & save removing (carrying) them out of the class or down the office i cant with this boy due to his violent behaviour. Their only so much i can do. Also, at the school we work as a team. If someone needs a hand, we dont hestiate to lend a hand. I can't & shouldn't have to do this all by myself. Also, i have only worked with this student for 3 days. It's going to take awhile to develop some strategies to prevent him from leaving class or assisting him back to class as quickly as possible. In a nut shell, i think am being a little to hard on myself.
I think i just have to get use too working with a more challenging student since last year i helped out more in the classroom then one-on-one support. It's just making me a little uneasy, but am sure with time it will get alot easier. I will gain more confidence in myself. I was never really good with change and with being a Educational Assisant their isnt alot of security in the first few years you start. Things are always changing, every minute, every week, every year. I am suprised how well i am taking it. Sure, i have my moments where i question why i think i could pull this off. But, in the end i think am doing pretty dam good :]
I did get a LOCKER :]. Am guessing that could very well be a sign that they are keeping me. As far as postings up on the website, there are none. But, am told it can take awhile for a posting to be reposted.
We are moving in less then a week. Am still uneasy about the move. If am making the right choice finicial wise. However, i guess time will tell. I am excited to have my own room back though.
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