An update of my life for the past almost year I've been single | 03/03/2010 |
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So, here's an update of my life, thus far. :]
I've been working at Country Junction/Ashley Furniture for the past 5 months now. and I've never been happier at a job than here. I'm actually MOTIVATED to work. I can easily say that I've never worked harder, and happier at a job before. When I used to work at Bon-Ton, they would call me and ask me to come in early and I'd come up with some excuse to not go in early. I'd always be wanting to get out of there as FAST as I could. But with this job I have now, I go in AN HOUR before opening and clean, get the computers running, make coffee and just sit and TALK TO MY MANAGERS. O_O
Everyone there, is so nice and welcoming, they have been since I've been working there. I've become so close to the girls there that we hang out after work now. I can go to them about problems and I know they have my back, if there's something going on. All I have to say is "can you please do this for me?" and I have so many people to offer to help me. I'm not afraid to be myself there, and I'm not afraid of asking questions. I LOVE my job. I work pretty much full time hours. 6 days a week. 36-38 hours a week. For a part time associate. I can easily say that Katie, Megan, Sara and Bethann are my closest and dearest friends because of the Junction.
Next thing; I'm getting my life together more and more everyday. I was recently looking at places to move into, on my own. Pretty much, with a roommate. But it's the fact of me getting out of this god forsaken house. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my Gramma, and even my Poppie...[sometimes for him], but I have NO privacy in this house, I get nagged about everything I do, they're too strict and I can't deal with it anymore. I'm possibly moving out soon. I'm excited but at the same time, scared. But I need to gain my independence. Plus, my grandfather is possibly the worlds biggest asshole. I can't stand it.
Also; I've been going to the gym, 3 times a week for about an hour or so with my store manager's sister Claire; I've gotten 2 comments this week that I look like I'm losing weight.
FINALLY!
my self esteem is going up. I even took notice to it at work, I caught myself looking in the mirrors more, and seeing my stomach starting to shrink. Claire gave me a pair of jeans that are NORMALLY my size, and they fell BELOW my butt. and I had to keep pulling them up after walking about 15 steps or else they'd fall to the floor. I feel pain in my stomach in my abs, arms, legs and thighs. AND IT BURNS SO GOOD! lol, I LOVE it. I've woken up at 6 am and gone to the gym by 7 am and gone straight to work.
Now, for the best news; I've been going out A LOT more. and I met some guys.
MHM,MHM.
But, this past Sunday; I met this guy name Chuckie, through Peter DiCarlo. And
omg. Chuckie, is so cute. After I left, he kept telling Peter how cute he thinks I am and was begging him for my number. But Peter wouldn't give it to him. So I came back and when Peter was stoned off his ass, he told me and I begged him for Chuckie's number and he gave it to me. And Chuckie and I have been talking every single day since Sunday. He told me he thinks I'm really cute and wants to get to know me. And I told him the same thing. And a couple of his texts messages really make me smile. Like "When we get to know each other more, I have things to tell you that I've never told my best friends before." and "I'm glad I can make u smile." and "Your awesome because I'm not shy talking to you. I'm not the most social person but I can talk to you easily."
Those make me smile so much, because I feel the SAME exact way. It's SO EASY to talk to Chuckie, I feel like, I can be myself already around him and I feel like I can tell him anything, he's a great listener, and he's simply adorable in all aspects. I'm really hoping we become a couple in time :]
We were talking about Mayhem Fest 3 a couple nights ago, and he was telling me Korn and Rob Zombie are gonna be there. I NEED TO GO TO THIS CONCERT. Zombie and Korn are on my top 5 bands to see live. and I'm gonna BEGGGG to go haha. I think it would be so cool if we could get a huge group of people together and go.
Just the mention of his name makes me smile. And I can't remember the last time I've felt this happy over someone I've just met. For the first time since Jared left me, I'm not afraid to let my wall down, and I'm not afraid to trust Chuckie. I don't think he'd do anything to hurt me, or go behind my back. If we were to ever get together, I have a feeling we'd be together for a long time. Just takes effort making it work since he lives a half hour away, and works 2 jobs. But I'm sure we could make it work if we tried, even if we had to request time off to see each other.
So, life right now, is completely turning in the RIGHT direction.
Because, I feel grown up, I feel mature. I feel so much better than I did a year ago when I was with Jared. I don't feel tied down, I don't feel stressed, I'm spending more time SMILING and less time CRYING. It feels great, I feel like I can finally spread my wings and take flight, and create my OWN life. ♥
This is a picture of Chuckie :]
:]]] he makes me smile.
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