I am sorry that I have not been on lately... I feel like I am losing my reason in life, losing all the things important slowly but surely. All I ever do is stay at home and watch my nephew for my sister. I can't do anything else, never have time... whenever I stopped to do my thing bad stuff always happend and they'd guilt tripped because i don't want to do it. She is supposed to pay me but I have seen no money. I don't do any of the things i used to, i gain a lot of weight. I can never sleep like i want. I have a psycho ex girlfriend trying to make me look like a bad guy because I won't bang her back out. She claims that she loves me now, even though she is messing with other men. (she's a skank) she drinks and drugs...
I am trying so hard to get out of this growing needle. I want to try to lose the weight I've gained. i'd like to find a normal girl that will actually want to be my girlfriend when hit it off.... I want to go to school or get a job. and I need to find a babysitter. I will pay them myself. I also wish there was a way that some certain people would not forget who I am... I feel like i am losing everybody and being sought for the wrong reasons.. i feel like i am not friend enough...
I am trying not to be an angry gopher.
My birthday is tomarrow. I turn 28. I don't think anyone will know or rememberand most likely won't do anything like most of the time... my family never remember mine but always remember each others... |